I miss you Love. Even though you were never mine, it still feels wrong to even think of anyone else. I'm supposed to have sex, but there's a possibility I might chicken out because of my feelings for you. You own my heart and thus own all of me. To be honest, I'd rather be watching a movie with you than have sex with someone who is not you. I'm afraid that if I do actually have sex, I'll say your name. I secretly wish you'll try to stop me... and I think I would gladly obey your wishes.
Have I let myself be weak today? I often ask myself what would you do or what would you want me to do? It's nice to have someone to look up to.
And to think, it wasn't even that long ago I decided to stop having sex because I grew feelings for you. I don't regret making that decision.
 niatsu · Fri Nov 20, 2009 @ 05:48am · 0 Comments |
