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crying i hate myself ive been betryed and heart broken in what i have read i feel dead again hee tells people im somehing im not i hate him mad at her maybe but i hate myself i betrayed her not with cheating stealing or lying but by being blind i had no idea of the damage i was causing he says ill rape her he says shes my puppet but how blind is he his i love her more than anyone ever i culd but what i feel is fear. the fear of losing her the feaer of hurting her i ay be tough but it hurts to hear someone say that about me i hate myself for caring to another when i should have been caring for her i want to die is whats screaming in my head i wnt this to end peacefully but thats hopeless thought she talks to him again in txts i hear i hate my self i hate myself for not stoping him im far from home wondering if i should return i love her oh how i love her so my heart is broken butonly from the fear and knowlege of what ive learned but what is not broken is how i feel for her ik the things i read were from a while ago but they still hurt all the same im crying hard and i never do that why couldnt she talk to me about that stuff why im sick of it all of hit i want everyone to leave us alone leave us be im happy now and the moment it happens its stolen away he says he loves her but ik he doesnt he says i want all these things that i dont the poems the song the feeling exchanged between him and her is the last thing i can take one more and who knows what ill do i love her to much i wont lose her but idk if ill lose me crying
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