...if I've lost myself.
Work is so so these days. I put in my two weeks notice, only to get greeted with a 'whhy? D:' Great, just great. Now I feel like every little thing that works to my benefit for the next week will be some sort of break from my managers as a way of buttering me up to keep me around. Yesterday, I didn't go to work. My manager specifically told me not to worry about coming in, even after I told her I pretty much was supposed to be closing...What a mess. Then today, they decide 'hey, we're going to get some food, what do you want?' I say 'whatever, I'll give you the money for it' So they go and come...then she's like, 'oh. don't worry about it.' Suspicious~! Then, I don't get chewed out for the confusion from Saturday...oh yeah, I definitely feel like I'm getting buttered up.
I know this is a bad time to quit.
They should have hired more people for cafe from the beginning.
I don't owe them Anything. ANYTHING.
But I adore my co-workers. All of them. Even when they have less than pleasant attitudes at times.
I don't want to disappoint them, or offend them.
They might not let me come back.
I'm incredibly comfortable with this job.
They're like, 'we can cut your hours. ' But I'd still be there during the WORST parts of the day. I decided last year when I went through this mess the first time, that I did NOT want to do it again. The month of December, I don't want to be there. I don't want to be there at 6 am for a lousy meeting, then open at 8, only to be there til almost/after 6, then do it again. I don't want to get phone calls from my sister, sobbing about her boyfriend and wanting to come home...only for us to get there and find she's changed her mind, because he's whispering in her ear like some poisonous snake.
I don't want to do this...but the tips are sweet, and you can't beat a paycheck every two weeks, being able to afford presents for everyone and yourself. I don't like people, the idea of having to deal with rude people while making their fifty million drinks burns me up. But I love my co-workers. and once we close, you can see the light at the end of the tunnel... They're like, 'think about it' And I have. I know I don't want to do this, this year, probably any year. But I'm honestly afraid of disappointing and losing these people that have become as familiar as anyone else I consider dear.
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3/19/10
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