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Life... is it all full of pain..?
we all suffer, from sadness, anger, hurt, depression, anything..
without knowing it.. we can cause others pain... some cause we're just angered...
some are accidental, some are on purpose...
that is a very difficult part of life.. we get pain inflicted onto us..
it hurts us so much we want to die...
even though its not too important to our life..

we always put friends and family ahead of us...
if friends hurt us, it becomes a sharp knife slashing into our hearts, it makes it so that we dont want this and we want to get away, run from this place...
we sometimes cant take it...
sometimes, emotional pain hurts most to others... because the one they love is pained and dont want anything to be done...
it may hurt a lot...

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just when i attached myself too much, i was dropped like stone
i was thrown away to not help again... they pushed my away... they do not know how much it hurts... they do they have been hurt... and then suddenly, they just thrusted my greatest fear of all... losing a friend, them receiving pain, me not helping, and throwing me away after i just got along...

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I just had a bad day today...
so i just wanted to ket it out here...
my friend was all depressed and such...
it scared me.. i felt pain pass through my body as he told me to stop...
my heart hurts... i get really sad that my friends go through pain...
i just want to isolate myself.. hide myself from this dark world...
people here are nice... but life is dark..
i hope there would be a world with no pain and be filled with happiness..

right now, i do have to feeling of running away to isolate myself, to keep people out of my area for a while.. until light comes back into my world...
i dont thnk it'll come for a while... i dont know...
i hope my friend gets better...

i want to help so much... but i cant... theres nothing i can do... except wait...
but then i will have to go away so he can have his happiness soon fulfilled...
i just cant help... this feeling... it hurts so much that i would actually cry..
i would but my emotions hide from the pain that someone will give if i do...
so i now will not cry, but cry with words in my heart so i may never show you, i will never cry... never in front of you or anyone.. i'll cryy in my own place or isolation where no one may see me in pain... in my heart...

bye now... im finished talking...
i finally took it all out... im contented, but still in dispair, i will soon get better... maybe....