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we my second entry this month... God i hate my life.. its so complicated. I liked this guy eli. But i dont think he loves me like i love him. SO that sucked but i cept trying. mean while another guy was falling inlove with me,but i ddint love him at the moment. So i start talking to ANOTHER guy, who happens to be my ex. and find out hes in love with me too. so im like screaming wth how come so many ppl hate or love me why cant this b normal. n he goes off saying hs gonna kill himself because im not with him. and he did hurt him self. but ti wasnt a fatal blow. thank god... But REALLY why are all these boys falling in love wit me??? all i ever do is be myself...its like a curse. They dont realize how mean iamlove isnt exacty the first thing in my mind. Death... i've been single so long.. because i loved this boy n i was dumb enough to dump him after 6 months.i till love him n always will, but i was single for a rlly long time cuz i didnt want another boy to love. And i dont now.. but im giving a certin boy a choice because he does mean something to me.,. SO wish him luck.. i dont kno how long ill last ..