I just want to be able to move out of my house and not be botherd by anyone who has somesort of unhealthy obsetion with the damn dishes. I am trying to like maybe get on hour of sleep befor I leave for school at 7 and what does my step father do. he wakes up comes over to my room and opens the door. no privacy what so ever. then lectures me on something that hasn't happend in weeks. Then we arguee about the dishes. finally I get so fed up with his bull s**t I go do them. he wonders why I give him no respect. people who don't respect me dont get any from me. I'm getting tired of all this crap. I go to school I come home I do house work and then I go to my actual job! I'm exhausted, over worked, and under paid. I have to pay for school, food, gas, insurance, and still find time to be with others. theres no way I want to stay here any longer. he puts me threw this every ******** day. this morning he came in my room and asked if I had my car insurance payment yet. I said no because I was going to go pay for the rest of my college tuition. all he wants me to be is a slave and thats not in my JOB DISCRIPTION. Nor is it in my personality.
In this crap a** excuse for a home we have my mom, step father, sister, her husband, two of my nephews, and me. I'm last because I get nothing. anyway, my mom has two jobs plus helping with babysitting when me and sarah go to work. Me and sarah work at BK. 8 hour sifts, 4 till close. and you know it sucks. the kids don't obviously have a job. there only 1 and 3 years old. the two men in the house don't have jobs. charlie, I don't believe will ever have one. he's just here to suck the lives out of us and take our money. guess what though...the guys dont do any ******** work what soever. pisses me the hell off. I'm really sick off all the crap I get put threw because of them.
sorry for my rant I'm crying at the moment, I'm tired, and I'm upset. <--has been threw the whole depression and therapy before and doesn't want it again. I was told anytime that something happends in my life get it out one way or another. I believe she said tell someone or write it. and seeing as how I do not have anyone to talk to because my entire familey has no respect for me at all, I have to tell my friends on gaia. people who actually listen.
 Usukie_Ichihara · Wed Feb 01, 2006 @ 09:47am · 0 Comments |
