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Well, I blew up at mom and told her I wasn't going to end up like her who was a slave to everyone around her, that I wasn't going to let people step on me all my life. This was because driving Jenny has become an order, not a favor. I get screamed at, I have to wait ON HER because the icky scary bus is too frightening and she needs to be dropped at the front entrance like a little princess. God, it's annoying. Every time she says it's "her car" I want to backhand her. "Her car." Really. She doesn't have a permit, has never payed for gas. She promised to share-pay with me until I pointed out she was broke, then she started firing insults again.

When she screamed, "She better not be leaving!" when I was going to warm up the car, I got inside, turned it on, and left. I won't be her b***h. I won't do that to myself. I mean it -- I'm tired of feeling shitty after trying to indulge someone else. It's the most consuming, sickening feeling and I WILL NOT STAND FOR IT.

Was expecting an even bigger fallout after school, so I went and got a Java Chip before I would have to surrender the car. But mom was actually really calm about it.

I'm not going to drive tomorrow, anyway, since senior Psych kid who parks next to me told me that they're going to start towing at the Annex tomorrow if I don't get a pass. He opened my door when I was buckling and I screamed. >_> Jake better give me his ******** ticket thing or I'm boycotting our story collaboration. talk2hand

What's this about a party in Dorogi's room that Prez invited me to? Is it just my old Euro class I transferred out of? Because if it is, I'll just make up some shitty excuse and bail.

Went to the gym. But since I got two hours of sleep after reading some Right Stuff, I was so tired...I'm still so tired...

Two hours until seventeen. I wish to be seventeen. It has a seven in it. A good number. I have high hopes. I like how the festive spirit from Christmas/New Years carries over to my birthday, because I'm still in resolution enforcement mode.