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..why cant people see im different? I mean..-sighs-..I dont use people to make them feel sorry for me..thats wrong..I just tell people how I would feel and thats it..I dont see how wrong it is to place my opinion in the table..and no I dont make up my truth explanations, for example, people dont like to hang with me alone!..why?..idk because im weird..which is true I do have spontaneous reations to things..or I explain things to the very core and detail and that im a smartass in knowledge..but yeah that is no lie, people dont seem to like to hang..which I understand its a social thing...only the rarity of unique people (Amber... heart ) that see im different...and likes it...so in a way..a truth like that actually changes??..hm..but I dont play people for fools..sorry...just ugh...-murmurs-..I wish she stayed on...before she left I asked her what does my heart say when she always says she has to go...she didnt get the letter but...-sighs-..even though I try to hide it, my heart always screams and cries for her..Idk if she can see that...but I have a feeling she is dreaming upsetting dreams of me...and in a way unwanted now..punished for trying to show my emotions on how I feel whenever she goes...who knew.. heart