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Train

Its going to be okay...the pain will pass with each day...it will get easier...
These are the words that fill my ears while the sympathetic eyes stare at me and the arms around my shoulders grip tighter.

These people have no idea what it feels like, how my heart has been ripped from my body lying motionless on the ground. The pain is so unbearable and they will never know. Their empty words of comfort flood my head as I stare into the darkness.

The pain as they promised has never gone away, it subsides for 5 minutes then rages back through me like a freight train, the loud noise from its horn screams in my head, the rumbling of the earth shakes inside my body and the tears flow like the speed of the train. This massive machine thunders through me everyday with no end in sight.

So all the promises from strangers, friends, and family were nothing but lies...just a way for them to have an easy way out. You never get over the pain only feel better for a period of time...then its time to check your watch and make your way down the stairs to wait for your train.