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Losing my father.
I am going insane and the tears are spilling out of my eyes like waterfalls.
Its all slipping past me too quickly, like trying to catch the smoke with my bare hands.
I can't stop it, I can't do anything.
The ache is getting bigger, the hole is getting wider.
My soul is bleeding at the loss of my father, and I know I'll never be the same.
The pain will remain even when he's long gone and the color has disappeared from his face.
In this world there's our one father and I've lost mine.
Its like a turmoil of chaos and death around me.
I'll never be able to get over the fact that tonight....this very night I'll lose my father a simple problem.
Doctors sit idly by and say there's nothing to do but let him pass away in his sleep.
He still sleeps, but i hear his soft cries of pain and his whimpers of agony and confusion.
I'll never be the same listening to this man, my father suffer so slowly, so painfully.
I'll never forgive myself for letting this happen.