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My Life This shall be about anything; Life, Me, True Love, Boys, People, Religion, Hatred.... You'll just have to see.


Forsaken Blood Rayne
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My Feelings Of Everyday Life
We all have feelings right? Even if we say we don't... oh but we do!

You know how I feel everyday?
Depressed.

Yep, that is my MAIN feeling of every ******** day of my pathetic, useless and worthless life.

I feel like the loner in every group, the secretly ignored by others. How do I know? I can tell! I'm like the god damn mentalist. I'll know when others ignore me, or even avoid me. I know when others lie because I can lie pretty damn good myself. It's obvious in most situations. Sometimes, it's not and then that's when I get a bit deeper and eventually I'll hit the truth.

I feel like a tortured and lost soul upon the living and the dead. I don't belong here, this isn't me, this isn't who I am... but it is...

We've all been through tough times right? And you know how everyone gripes about it like I am doing right now? Well... I need to get this off my chest.

I feel alone in every crowd, even in the groups I am so loved in. I feel like I'm the only one who walks down this broken road... But where is the light? There isn't any light for the evil I have done. I call out for help, but no one hears me. I am ignored. People don't care because they think their life is perfect and that they don't need to deal with other people's problems...

Then why the hell are we so depressed? What is the true reason behind depression? Because we want someone who is always there for us; someone to lean on when everyone else turns their back on us. They'll listen to our story and they will understand. They will take us in and teach us how to deal with our problems. But it seems like we can't find that person. No one is willing to be that person. I know I can't be that... I, too, need that person.

Each and every day, I feel like this. There is a few days where I am happy... but it's rare. If I'm with the love of my life, sure, I AM happy. But sometimes when I'm with the best friends of my life.. depression gets a hold of me and I can't run away from it. Nothing will heal what I have. Nothing will get rid of it either. I am stuck with this disease, and no one cares.

This world would be different if people just ******** cared once in a while....





 
 
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