-screams on the top of her lungs-
It seems as if everything is ok when he texts her while shes's hanging out with me but forebid it when I text her while she's hanging out with him. There are times we are playing a game and she doesn't say its rude to talk to you when I'm playing or talking with me. He has special acceptions.
A best friend- means everything to you and your everything to her until she gets a boyfriend and drops your a** like a hot potato in an instant.
I seriously just wish I had ppl around me that are worth my time, my effort, my tears, and my happiness. I can't seem to make friends well as a 21 yr old I mean come on, you don't ecxactly walk up to a 24 year old guy and say Do you wanna play with me? Wanna come push me on the swing we can take turns? Seriously, there is no one at my work i already graduated from school and haven't went to high college. Wtf!
Sadly I am moving to a ******** web site. -.-; god how pathetic is that a ******** website jesus.
-curls up in a corner- I just hate How I feel so alone. Family isnt worth anything. Friends dont mean much. My outlook on love is nearly impossible (since no one wants me) why not give into my temptation.
Should I see a Phsyc just to talk to someone different? -sigh-
It times like these that I feel like im Drowning. Its hard to breathe and I am in total darkness and no one can reach me NOT ONE ******** LIGHT PARTICLE where I sit and pray that I just stop breathing and my heart stops pumping and I am frozen in time. The world has stopped turning completely. At least Adrienne's world.
I'm not even pretty, i am fat (which im okay with), im as smart as the classic sterotype blonde, my voice is irritating, im a whiny crybaby b***h who cant handle being alone or life itself. I just wish I had someones arms i can run into when times get rough. I wish I had that person where I am not afriad to make out with him in public (which is ******** sick) and/ or can feel me up and grope me in front of my friends. (hers does that in front of me. She tells him to stop cause im uncomfortable but sometimes he doesnt listen which makes HER GIGGLE AHHHHH) (btw again if he ******** respects me he wouldnt do that s**t in front of my friends- kinda how I wish they wouldnt do it in front of me).
But seriously sometimes, I wish I could erase him from the world just so I can have her back. I miss having her 24/7. Dont get me wrong I love sharing her and dont mind but when I only get 2 ******** days and he gets 5 WTF man. god damn its not like yakll dont ******** see each other. i am used to seeing her 7 days a week and now im only limited YES I SAID LIMITED to two ******** days ******** YOU!
Now what I mean by erase does not mean kill. I WOULD NEVER WISH DEATH ON ANYONE we.... only one person but that is because he literally abused the ******** out of and no Ap its not ******** ellis it is micheal shepard.
This completes my venting Sorry its so ******** long.
btw it so nice of angel to buy me something for valentines day even if it was something cheap it was still sweet and it made me cry. Angel I love you.
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That..Well I had been hoping from the last time we talked about it in Skittles World would have solved itself but I see now that its going to be near impossible to take care of something like that by just sitting around and hoping for the best...
Have you sat her down and told her about this?Saying this kind of stuff over the internet to a buddy doesn't connect like it would in person.