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I wonder why I am alive if I am always in so much pain.
Do the angels like to torment me?
Does fate hate me?
I wonder why I am always surrounded by negativity.
Do the feelings around me make me who I am?
Does it make me feel what I feel right now?

I wonder why I cry at night if the tears are never consoled.
Do people dispise me so much they enjoy my pain?
Does it make me seem weak to them?
I wonder why no one answers my cries and my pains.
Do they want me six feet under?
Does it make them feel empowered when they watch me crumble?

I wonder why I bother to speak at times when no one ever listens.
Do the angels ever listen?
Does it ever occur to anyone I might have a voice too?
I wonder why I open up my heart when it only gets broken repeatedly.
Do the angels ever cry for me the way I cry for them?
Does it ever make it seem like I expose myself too easily to love?

I wonder why. I always wonder why.
It never makes me feel any better though.
It always leaves a gaping hole inside my heart, my mind, my soul.
The questions always are left unanswered.
Never heard again