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Its been over a year since my last post, this time, and I'm pretty sure nobody ever reads these anymore. I'm not very active on Gaia, just deviantart and Facebook mostly. If I even get on, that is.

David is on his PS3 a lot, and even I am, playing Call of Duty Modern Warfare 2 online. I'm no good at it. At all. I try though. It is rather fun. Anyway...we only have one ethernet cable at the moment, and its either connected to the PS3 or the computer he bought me, but it depends on who wants to do what.

Already March, huh? Wow...time does really fly. Arietta will be two on August 10, and Sandy on August 24. And David and I will officially be married a whole year (although we've acted like a married couple since we got together!)...August will be a busy month!

I guess I post these here more for myself than anything...who really cares about anniversaries and birthdays of some other person? I like recording my thoughts online...'cause then in case anyone really does need an update, they can have it. Thing is, I have the deviantart thing...I don't know. I guess I'm just dumb. I always liked blogs and journals, and I guess I don't like privacy for them because I don't have anything to hide. o_o;

Interesting event today. I was messaged by someone I didn't expect to be messaged by, especially not on Gaia, but I'm not going to reply. I don't think it would be proper. Besides, the past is best left - you guessed it - in the past. Moving forward, with my husband and babies.

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It does remind me though, of the online friends I lost. I kinda miss them sometimes. More specifically, this girl I used to talk to on msn chat/msn messenger, ended up coming on Gaia to roleplay with her...and eventually I guess I got annoying. Or I guess some people made me out to be worse than I was. Too much drama. I look back at the person I used to be, and I don't blame her for kinda shunning me. Its a shame though, because she's a really great artist, and she always made me laugh because she was fun. I think if certain things didn't happen, we might have been friends. Sometimes I want to say hi, but like I said, the past must be left in the past. If we were meant to contact each other yet again, we would. I check out her art sometimes on da. And I'm secretly proud of her. I think I even said so once, but I told her its okay to not respond. Things got so iffy between us. And I just keep thinking how much I miss her. And its weird because its been years. But what can I do? I can't just randomly start talking to her again and expect it to be okay again. I think I'm just really afraid her opinion is weighed based on unfair factors, and I think that if I did try to talk to her, she'd say something mean and I'd feel bad again, like last time.

I guess sometimes you go your own seperate ways.

Well...time for bed. I don't think anyone reads this, like I said, but maybe one day she'll read this, know its her, and maybe she'll say hi if anything. If not, that's okay too...I just remember how nice it was to just be friends with someone cool. There were a few other people, but I don't think I can access my msn chat contacts ever again, due to unfortunate circumstances. Wow, how much everything has changed...its amazing!

I did get to salvage a friendship that didn't really start out as a friendship, though. I mean, I think this lady is a really cool person, very nice, and pretty fun. I got a lot of respect for her and I even like her art too. Its nice that we can still talk here and there, and get along. I appreciate her talking to me at all, hahah.

David's back is hurting so I'm gonna go snuggle him.

Maybe after some bubble tea though. ...thirsty... *crawls to kitchen*

-Ashley

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