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A den of a Beast...
hm..life at its most darkest times in ones body...
the Marks..
they say im recovering quickly...after the surgery...they say I need to wait for a month so I can rip this freaking insult of a brace off my chin..people are already laughing at how I look...as if an underwear is on my head..I cant help but cry..old pains coming back to haunt me..I didnt even want this s**t..and like my friends and I, we all ask each other: what was wrong with it before?..besides it looks like nothing change.."...I dont care about it!! its a stupid tactic of dear ol mother trying to make me...different..she changes the outside...but never..the inside of me...I will always be Ambers loving, food-snacking, game-playing, Big Daddy-protective, soft-loving, family-caring, Teddy...-tears form and looks down- I hope I still am..I havent heard from her since the week and my heart and body is racked with pain..the Bond..the Bond..I want to be with her, and im almost done with it all..the chains are loosening..power is gaining..but I havent heard from Amber...my fellow friends and family have sent my letters since on teh break, ive been bound to my chains from the laptop..only to talk on Xbox Live..I keep telling mother..I will gladly trade the xbox for the laptop..just to tell Amber my beloved story and be with her..-cries- but no!! she enjoys giving me torture!! and now! im free, and no response from any from my family and my love! ugh!! -cries looking down- I feel like a Freak...like no one wants to talk to me..like Amber doesnt even want to hug, kiss, or love me..she came on..but even with my letters of sadness and hurt, no reply..no tackle of love and sadness, no tears of joy of seeing her soulmate finally return from prisonment of his own wretched family...just..silence..if you are reading this, my Amber, know that my heart will always belong to you and my soul wishes to be with yours for eternity...I Love you..please answer.... heart





 
 
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