Today we went to get the I.V. taken out, and were hoping for good news. Mostly because she even had some fight left. I mean, she ate, she drank, she didn't throw up, she went outside and walked around the dirt, and even climbed all the stairs to the house (when yesterday she barely made it up four of them). So it was very disconcerting when we got told that her kidneys were crystalizing, and that there was nothing more we could do short of risky procedures that had a low percentage of success. It was then that all of us broke down, cried, and agreed to put her to sleep. We paid the extra to make sure it was the humane way (sedative, then injection).
It was so hard, but a friend who had lost his dog told me to stay with her no matter what so you didn't regret it afterwards. I did. I petted her until the vet said she wasn't breathing anymore. That it was done.
I chose the urn she'll be cremated in, and we've learned that there's still an active pet cemetery in town that we can bury her at.
Needless to say everyone's a wreck. No one's been able to stop bawling before or after.
No matter how I look at it, I know she was in pain when we picked her up, but there was still so much life to her. Her will was unparalleled. It's just her body couldn't keep up with that strength. I'm torn.
It hurts. I haven't even gotten this emotional when family members died, that's how much the cat meant to us.
Thank you Tabby for the 17 long years of love you've given to this penny. As mom said, you were worth every penny. heart
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I remember crying so much. I drove to my Mom's and she had called a family friend to be there as well while we said our goodbyes to her. We sat on the floor with Baby in the middle. It was the best thing that could have happened for our final goodbye. Baby hadn't been able to walk or recognize us for sometime, but as we said our goodbyes... *sorry, tearing up* ... She stood up and came to me. She looked knowing and serene as she nuzzled my hand and let me pet her. I hugged her and told her how much I loved her and that I would miss her. She was very much a part of my life. I talked to her when I felt like I had no one else to listen. She always snuggled with me when I was feeling bad and gave me the love that I needed. It was one of the hardest moments of my life. She made her way to everyone else and said her goodbyes as well.
I didn't go with my Mom, I had to work, but she was with her until the end. My Mom called me in tears. It was a very hard day... I went to my Mom's after work and we cried while sharing stories in memory of her.
I guess I'm sharing this with you, because I know exactly how you feel. I'd never cried like that for a family member. But she was our family member... she was my best friend. I am so so sorry for your loss and that you had to go through that. I know I've had the hardest time letting myself get attached to animals ever since. It's heart wrenching to have to keep going through that...