Since I'm on this journal streak, I may as well put this down on the viewer too.
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Is it wrong for me to just completely cut all ties with girls I used to like because they don't like me back?
I mean, there were times when I grew up that I found myself falling for some girl, and when I finally gathered the courage to tell her how I really felt, the situation happens where:
a) I discover that she already has a boyfriend.
b) I find out she's not interested in going out.
c) I tell said girl how I feel, and she doesn't feel the same way.
c2) I tell said girl how I feel, she stays silent about it, THEN tells me she doesn't feel the same way.
d) Any of the above, with the added insult that she wants to be friends still.
Whenever any of those happen, followed very closely by d), it really tears me up inside. They think everything's cool, and I still have lingering feelings that just don't go away that easily. Of course, I have to pretend that it's cool, and I eventually just ignore them until they eventually continue on with their lives, thankfully cutting me out of it.
I mean, there's an exception to this rule; I'm actually quite alright around women who I know way ahead of time are already taken, like my brother's friend's wife (whose expecting around the next month or so). She even let me put my hand on her pregger belly, and it felt nice.
...I know it doesn't seem healthy, but that's just how I seem.
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