A long time ago, I met and was attacked by a being named Zero 3. Recently I met it(his?) predacesor, Zero 2. I feel sorry for the creature. It is the embodiment of negative feelings, incapable of having positive feelings. All it wants is friends, but is going about it the wrong way. I offered 02 a cookie and he ate it...somehow. Mentally. He then asked me what I wanted, and after I said just to give it a cookie, he told me to be gone and blew me gently away with his great wings. I was surprised he wasn't angry at my positive emotions, or for approaching him. He could have really hurt me. Instead, he gently sent me away.
Seeing 02 made me think about myself. As a embodiment of chaos, am I unable to create or experience order? I've had periods of calm in my life, but they are very few and far between. If I ever retire, would it be impossible for me to find peace? I enjoy the chaos in my life, of course, but, if I ever settled down, ever had a family...
No, I'm sure it would be possible. I'm not complete chaos. If I were, I'd be unable to keep a stable form, like when I die. I know it's impossible for me to have children because of my nature. My body wouldn't work right, and I could give birth to anything. But I hope my entire future isn't lost.
Well anyway, I started a new mission-I'm researching a small harbor town called Innsmouth. I can sense an overwhelming amount of chaos from it. But it's not pure chaos, it feels...wrong. Bad. Something is wrong with this town.
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