Confessions
I Just Gotten Back Home,
From The Hospital.
My Brother Seems To Be,
Acting A Little Bit Strange.
As If He Was Hiding Something.
Something I Know,
That'll Wanna Make Me,
Become Suicidal Again.
When I Got To School,
The Very Next Day,
I Skipped My Class,
And Headed Over To,
The Schools Brand New,
Hot tub Swimming Pool.
I Got Into My Bathing Suit,
And Walked Over To The Deep End.
I Looked At My Reflection.
Reflecting Straight Back At Me.
I Saw A Little Girl,
Broken And Lost.
I Just Needed Time.
Time Alone To Clear My Head!
I Dived Into The Pool Listening.
Listening To The Silence,
Of The World Around Me.
I Swam To The Shallow End,
And Popped My Head,
Out Of The Water.
I Brushed Back My Hair,
From My Face,
And Heard,
What Sounded Like My Name.
I Wiped Away,
The Water From My Eyes,
Spun Around,
And To My Surprise,
That Girl Was Here!
She Dived In.
She Swam From Her End,
To Where I Was Standin,
Still Shocked!
She Bursted,
Out Of The Water,
With A Faint Grin.
As She Was Only,
A Few Feet Away From Me.
I Took A Step Back,
Looking Into Her Eyes,
FULL Of Hatred!
I Clenched My Fists,
Feeling My Nails,
Dig Further,
And Harder Into My Palms!
She Took A Step Forward,
With Her Smile Now Turning,
Into More Of A Courious Face.
I Took A Step Back.
Trying To Stay Out Of Her Reach!
I Was Ready To "KILL" Her.
But Instead,
I Waited Patiently,
To Hear What She,
Wanted To Say.
"Hey Amber"
She Said Softly,
And Soothingly.
"I'm Terribly Sorry About..."
She Pauses,
Waiting For,
The Rest Of The Words,
To Come.
"About All That Pain,
That I Have Costed You!"
A Tear Ran Down Her Cheek.
I Tightened My Grip,
Gave Her A Cold,
Hatred Stare,
And Said Angerly.
"Look I Don't Know,
What Or Who,
You Think You Are,
But..."
I Paused.
Hopeing She Would,
Understand Where I Was Getting At.
"But Don't You Think,
That You've Caused Me Enough Pain,
And Suffering?"
More Tears Ran Down Her Cheeks,
As She Was Taking Another Step Froward.
"Amber Please,
Don't Go!
I Didn't Want To Hurt You!
I LUV U!"
"If You Don't Want-"
I Stopped Mid-Scentance,
And Pointed To My Right Ear.
"If You Didn't Want To Hurt Me,
Then Explain This Hun!
EXPLAIN THIS!"
I Walked Up In Front Of Her,
Took My Hand,
And Swung It!
I Swung It,
As Hard As I Could!
It Struck Her Face,
Leaving A Red Hand Print.
Tears Started Falling.
Falling Quicker Than Ever,
From Me.
I Fell To My Knees,
Shocked From What I Had Just Done.
I Looked At Her,
Hopeing That,
That She Would Kill Me,
For Hitting Her.
But She Wasn't Mad!
Nor Did She Cry!
I Didn't Understand Why.
She Got Down On Her Knees,
In Front Of Me,
Reached Out,
Put Her Hand On My Shoulder,
And Said Softly.
"Amber Babii,
Its Ok!
I Deserved It Anyway!"
The Water Is Now,
At Both Of Our Chests.
But That Didn't Stop Her,
From Hugging Me.
As She Too Started Crying!
From The Hospital.
My Brother Seems To Be,
Acting A Little Bit Strange.
As If He Was Hiding Something.
Something I Know,
That'll Wanna Make Me,
Become Suicidal Again.
When I Got To School,
The Very Next Day,
I Skipped My Class,
And Headed Over To,
The Schools Brand New,
Hot tub Swimming Pool.
I Got Into My Bathing Suit,
And Walked Over To The Deep End.
I Looked At My Reflection.
Reflecting Straight Back At Me.
I Saw A Little Girl,
Broken And Lost.
I Just Needed Time.
Time Alone To Clear My Head!
I Dived Into The Pool Listening.
Listening To The Silence,
Of The World Around Me.
I Swam To The Shallow End,
And Popped My Head,
Out Of The Water.
I Brushed Back My Hair,
From My Face,
And Heard,
What Sounded Like My Name.
I Wiped Away,
The Water From My Eyes,
Spun Around,
And To My Surprise,
That Girl Was Here!
She Dived In.
She Swam From Her End,
To Where I Was Standin,
Still Shocked!
She Bursted,
Out Of The Water,
With A Faint Grin.
As She Was Only,
A Few Feet Away From Me.
I Took A Step Back,
Looking Into Her Eyes,
FULL Of Hatred!
I Clenched My Fists,
Feeling My Nails,
Dig Further,
And Harder Into My Palms!
She Took A Step Forward,
With Her Smile Now Turning,
Into More Of A Courious Face.
I Took A Step Back.
Trying To Stay Out Of Her Reach!
I Was Ready To "KILL" Her.
But Instead,
I Waited Patiently,
To Hear What She,
Wanted To Say.
"Hey Amber"
She Said Softly,
And Soothingly.
"I'm Terribly Sorry About..."
She Pauses,
Waiting For,
The Rest Of The Words,
To Come.
"About All That Pain,
That I Have Costed You!"
A Tear Ran Down Her Cheek.
I Tightened My Grip,
Gave Her A Cold,
Hatred Stare,
And Said Angerly.
"Look I Don't Know,
What Or Who,
You Think You Are,
But..."
I Paused.
Hopeing She Would,
Understand Where I Was Getting At.
"But Don't You Think,
That You've Caused Me Enough Pain,
And Suffering?"
More Tears Ran Down Her Cheeks,
As She Was Taking Another Step Froward.
"Amber Please,
Don't Go!
I Didn't Want To Hurt You!
I LUV U!"
"If You Don't Want-"
I Stopped Mid-Scentance,
And Pointed To My Right Ear.
"If You Didn't Want To Hurt Me,
Then Explain This Hun!
EXPLAIN THIS!"
I Walked Up In Front Of Her,
Took My Hand,
And Swung It!
I Swung It,
As Hard As I Could!
It Struck Her Face,
Leaving A Red Hand Print.
Tears Started Falling.
Falling Quicker Than Ever,
From Me.
I Fell To My Knees,
Shocked From What I Had Just Done.
I Looked At Her,
Hopeing That,
That She Would Kill Me,
For Hitting Her.
But She Wasn't Mad!
Nor Did She Cry!
I Didn't Understand Why.
She Got Down On Her Knees,
In Front Of Me,
Reached Out,
Put Her Hand On My Shoulder,
And Said Softly.
"Amber Babii,
Its Ok!
I Deserved It Anyway!"
The Water Is Now,
At Both Of Our Chests.
But That Didn't Stop Her,
From Hugging Me.
As She Too Started Crying!
