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My heart is aching
it's racing and breaking

We need to talk?
About what?

You say I worry about others too much?
Can I help that I care?

They think nothing of themselves
and I see more

Is it so wrong to want to help?
Yes, I know they won't change.

I know I am hurting myself,
but I don't do it purposely.

I take the medicine
and it helps a little

What else can I do?
Just lock them out?

They are my friends
and I am just one person

I will try to focus on other things
but they are so important

What if I just can't let it all go?

I'm feeling sick
my stomach is knotted

Someone help me
I feel backed in a corner again

Darkness shrouds my mind
Someone hand me the pills

I can't take much more of this
I only need one.

Something has to end this sick feeling I have
Everything has to be happy again.