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Four years ago, I watched one our dogs, brutally murder one of our kittens. I tried to jump in and stop him, but I couldn't. I can still see those blazing blue eyes as she fought him for her life. I can't quite recall her cries, but just knowing I heard them makes my stomach twitch.

Yet, it was this same day, that I met the one person I've loved since. When not even my best friend was willing to let me talk about it, this person did. I was up late, feeling like it was the least owed to me for having to witness that. I was looking for company, and found more. I wouldn't have met him otherwise, I'm very sure. I was distracted and amused and laughed at our replies. Then he actually let me talk about it. I'm not sure if I was aware of it then, that it was the start of something great in my life. It felt promising though, like the sun rising on me, on us.

It was different from what I had ever felt, and I was happy to fall in love with this person. Though it confuses me to this day, why he loved me. I'm a very doubtful person. I doubt me. I doubt him. One thing I do not doubt is my desire to love him. I'm looking for that happily ever after, just like any other girl, and I know who I want it to be with.

I know I seem stupid, but despite the huge obstacles between us, I still have this love for him. I'm happy that it never died, even when I wanted to move on. It's sad, but if he wanted the same thing I did, I would be willing to take every winding step on the path to get there.