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Wow I am so hurt at but what my family has been posting on facebook about me. ITS ******** RUDE AND NOT RIGHT.......

No matter where i turn all they can do is talk bad about me

SO right now im ******** crying and im going to go cry myself to sleep trying to think of something good that is about me....

im turning into such a b***h and im ******** sad ii feel as if im turning more into my mom AND I HATE HER I DONT WANNA BE ANYTHING LIKE HER
and then i have a psychotic aunt that all she does is preaches on my wrong

so im sitting here trying to think clearly through all this cloudy midsts and im searching fro something good to say about myself cause im starting to believe into everything EVENTUALLY MY SELF CONSCIOUS WILL BE SHATTERED..,,,,,

im just trying not to think of suicide sine im already going to hell jst for living my life

i just cant take it anymore im so lost and i feel so ******** up and my family is making me feel this way .....

i have GOT to move

thats going to take so much more time than its actually worth though.... can i last that long before i eventually make my mad world dream come true and hang myself....
Can I really hang on?

IM TRYING >.<;

Its just im getting to the point where when i ******** up something and someone gets mad im like ******** u and u and u and just ******** it ******** everything. WHY BOTHER EVERYTHING I DO THEY TAKE IT FOR GRANTED they never say thank you for the s**t i do do and they DONT EVEN ******** NOTICE IT SO WHY DONT THEY QUIT BITCHING AND GET OVER IT CAUSE ITS OBVIOUSLY NOT ******** CHANGING ANYTIME SOON BUT NO ALL THEY CAN DO IS PUT ME DOWN THINKING ITLL ******** HELP

NO U STUPID ******** RETARDS IT DOESN'T HELP IT MAKES ME WISH I WOULD ******** DIE

they dont see they are pushing me too hard.