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Sadness within a Smile
We all wish our Tears would flow no more.
My Dedicated Chapter(Gaia Based)
Well, I finally decided to it, to do one thing I know know one will ever do again in this lifetime, But I'll tell you it as a story, it all begins with a boy new in a found land of strangers making his way around, sure he sees its all fun and games carefree, he meets a girl, shes just as new as he is, they fool around get to know each other better, and quickly hit it off, sure they're enjoying each other, loving each other, but of course it doesn't last well, they soon lose touch after she goes away for awhile, the boy never hears from her again, so he trails off, wondering again in site, some may call this a fantasy some may call this bullshit, but eh the next girl found something cute about our wanderer she was more of a manipulator to our boy yet he played carefully along with it, and was tiresome of her tricks so deviously he crept away looking for someone else to bring him love where then he met someone like him, he adored this girl, he may have lied about his relationship but he couldn't pass her up, they embraced each other with love and compassion soon he felt guilt knowing he lied to her, so returned to his mischevious girlfriend telling her what he had done, she took it well hell she didn't care honestly, the proclaimed to only have him for the sex. It let him down a bit but he felt better knowing he can go away to his new lover. Months go by nearly a year him and his new girl stands strong, the boy has now become more of a flirt entering the game of lust and fate then he met her, The first of many who is still in love to this very day, they we're little flirts off by houses in the trees, they spent much together, when the boy wasn't with his girlfriend, let alone he looked at her feeling that same guilt he did before. He told her about his other lover, she understood but at that time she was honestly in love with him, she didn't care she wanted to be with him, they both agreed to be together secretly, then soon the boys girlfriend found out, she confronted the boy asking why he caused her infidelity he could not answer, she forgave him of his act but asked him to never do it again, he lied to her. Days go by the boy still sees his secret lover still at the same time seeing his girlfriend, til soon he can't keep up. He soon decided he has to choose, among all options he chose his secret girl, For that time him and her lived with harmony, but was never for good.
after entering the game of lust and fate the boy starts slipping, engaging extra relationships getting wreckless, causing problems for him and his girlfriend over 3 to 4 times after the birth of their children, til she finally says, enough is enough and she banished him..with guilt he wanted her back but she would not respond, she soon did only to be the boys friend and nothing more. he accepted her proposal and set off. He met a girl, who he saw as his reflection, yet at the time she had alright been taken with someone to occupy her needs, the boy set off to be her friend but soon the girl had to leave for a very long time, possibly to never be seen again. He grew sad slowly moving on. So maybe a year has gone by and the boy has been browsing around far and wide, blending in with the town folk, when he is approached by a very distinguished young lady another very important concept in this young mans life, he saw her as a goddess of desire she thought him some of the ways of charm and class, in return he'd give her sex whenever they wanted, soon she was preggers, with his child living such a classy life with struggles in between due to the boys inhabitable flirting, but she didn't want to let go of him, for they were so different yet so alike.., she tolerates more but soon decides that she cant be another one of his toys and leaves, taking their child with her. The boy really felt stupid after that, but even so those two never were apart he visited her visiting his son, thinking this is what type of family he wanted, but he couldn't keep it..., she let him go soon after wards. He wandered more and more in search of what he wanted when soon he bumped into a familiar face knowing who she was excited he became, seeing her again. Thats right the girl that once left came back, after so long. They automatically clicked from day 1 and spilled their secrets they had for each other. they we're glued. He made her happy as can be. But we all know must stories never have a happy ending, thats right infidelity is a b***h. He never could stop his problem it drove her away, but she was madly in love I'm telling you, she just thought they needed time away, for other people. So they split, the boy remembered some of his friends he was always fondling with from time to time and thought he'd ring her up, indeed she was the playful type but was often kept to herself, he always had heart for him, she was overjoyed the day they got together, for it was a friend who believed they were great together, they were indeed happy, he found someone who does what he does and enjoys doing it.no problems seemed to flare til the boy started messing with his old friend again, his "baby-mama" as the term is called. the girl believed her to be a crazy woman, giving him relief, but then knowing that he realized he had lost someone special. But that was the least of his worries his girlfriend hid things from him as well but were more hurting, her friend didn't approve of this boy for her, they knew who he was and what he does, it enraged him blaming her for it, causing him to leave. He wanted to die after doing what he did knowing he couldn't go back, he'd already broken her, so he left her be. Now at this rate the boy didn't what else to do, soon he meet up with friend forming an alliance, he felt at home with his new friends, which is wear he met another asset in his life thats makes him to what he is now. The way they met was "Tre Bizarre" but cute in a way, he looked at her startled, as she giggled at him they talked for mostly that whole night, endlessly, like a sweet blissful connection. They we're in twine like a Rose she loved him with all her heart and expressed in every way she could for him, he did the same but just could express it the way she did. She felt okay with it but wanted it out of him, for he couldn't do it, he knew it'd ruin his ego letting others know he's taken for he never wanted out of the game, her like others let some of his mis-haps slide, but like the rest grew tired of his games.. but alas she did tell him she'd always love him. He took that to the heart as he trailed the world again roaming. meting more friends day by day, til one of them caught his eye, he had style grammar and the best since of humor, he adored her.. yet she was a hard catch he had to play his card on this one, he took her by the hand loving her the best way he could be she knew of his slick ways, and knew that if he were to slip but once on any small terms she was kicking his a** to the curb, he knew he had to be on his toes. They shared deep love and struggle on one another, he slowly figured the puzzle of her hidden life, the sadness she's gone through to smile everyday covering it up. He understood her reasonings on things, she became an idol in his heart, yet too bad he crushed her, but her of some people forgave him eve though they cut the relationship short. He met with one of his damsels again, the one with the disgusted friends, she figured his lifestyle and became sickened by it, not wanting to have anything to do with him, yet she had his love. She gave him another chance giving him trials and tribulations, knowing if he ******** up it'd his one and only chance, it'd seemed they've gotten closer the second go round, doing more than they could before. Then it happened, caught red headed he was, trying to snake his way out but it was in the bold truth that he was with another girl(sorry I couldn't include her). She had had it, enough was enough, he wanted to explain to have another chance but at that time he asked himself was it worth it he didn't ask for another chance for he left it alone and for good. They are slowly drifting apart at this time as we speak. The boy yet again alone bumps into another familiar but someone different who he would never think of being with, he felt her out thinking she'd be the best friend for him, not knowing her endeavorous crush over him, she spills the beans surprising him.
He gradually accepts her into his heart without any questions but now soon he wish he would. she caught him with one of his ex's knowing this little affair but played it off cool, til it happened again leaving her to let him riot in his own muck, He regret what he had done to her, and wished he could of just turned the rest down. So later after all the mis-guided months he's endured he returned to his ex' his look alike, his completion, yet not commited not devoted to her, he's a cheating bum, at this moment with 2 other girls, yet they don't know it, 1's suspicious of it but cooled down about it. The other, who knows.
But now he just on a passing of corruption, knowing that all good things must come to a final end.


"To you guys that took time out to read this, Thank you"






User Comments: [5]
CD-iRape
Community Member





Thu Jun 17, 2010 @ 08:58am


wow...hella long...hurt my eyes...but I read it all...why u keep puttin yaself through so much hell knowing whts gonna come of it??I told u...don't be the leaf...be the wind...


Dj Divum
Community Member





Thu Jun 17, 2010 @ 04:24pm


Deep stuff there :


Kromestar
Community Member





Thu Jun 17, 2010 @ 06:22pm


@Mannie: Be The Wind Huh?
@DJ: Yeah Imagine living through it.


Sohntii
Community Member





Mon Jun 21, 2010 @ 10:29am


I just have one question . . . .
You may or may not know what this question is. .


nggrs
Community Member





Sat Jul 03, 2010 @ 05:28am


Very.. very, deep.


User Comments: [5]
 
 
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