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I remember the last time I felt really guilty, and I was sick all over, just feeling like crap, like I was going to die, and I wanted to.
Well, now I feel guilty again.
And I think thats what making me sick again. Ever since I came home (yesterday) I've been getting lightheaded, constant stomach aches and head aches and feeling just sick gross and wrong.
Bit some part of me is too proud to let me admit that the only reason why I feel guilty is my fault. Even though I changed things, I made things better, if you want to say that. I mean, at least I didn't seem like a total b***h.
Or maybe I still did. I hope I didn't.
But I was feeling guilty before, so maybe it's just carried on since now I did it. Or maybe not.
I'm not so sure anymore.

Long story short, I broke up with Benito. And now I feel bad.
******** me.