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So, the art shop seems like a flying failure to me. I probably shouldn't do it anyway since I'll be swamped with school before I know it, plus I have to study for my learners and all that. It's for the best. Doesn't seem like I'd get much business anyway I mean who am I kidding. I have like no friends and no one ever visits my page. And who even reads journals either?

Honestly I feel like I'm a terrible person. Ever since summer started I rarely see my friends anymore, not like I had many to begin with. I've mostly been hanging out with my boyfriend. I keep thinking maybe one or two of my friends will invite me to hang out but all I see is they are so busy with summer co-op to make plans or they rather hang out with newer friends they made last year in school. I try to make plans for everyone to enjoy but it seems like either someone just never wants to be around me or they have some other persons problem they are dealing with and are constantly in a bad mood. I feel like I'm all alone all of a sudden. These people I've known for years are just gone. It's like I have no friends anymore.

Is it my fault? Did they never really like me to begin with? Am I annoying to them? I've barely even started my life and I feel like is slowly falling apart. What can I do?