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My emotions as they are
The Aftermath
...This is the day that marks the two week heartbreak of my life, still walking alone in the path that seems to be the least traveled. The dark cloud that hovers, amongst us all, waits the perfect time to release the emotions, crying as it were, over the saddness in ones life. I vowed to him that I wouldn't be sad, or cry, but I did promise to move on and live life, without him. Moving forward day by day, not forgetting the memories but to simply make new ones to cover my pain and emptyness.As my life continues, I'll always look over my shoulder, seeing the most memorible times and then I continue, looking towards the future. I find some peace of mind in knowing, hoping, that he is there, hidden by the shadows.

Looking back, contemplating what he said about never leaving my side, I begin to wonder. Why did he say the words of promise and then break them? None the less, nothing lasts forever, as some say, and I find this true. Since the ending of our relationship, I feel somewhat lied to in a way. If this is final happiness, alone and unloved, then what is the point? Let the past be what it is, memorable and no longer now.

The cloud slowly clears and the light shines through, showing the world as it is meant to be seen. One no longer feels the sorrow and pain, lingering above them like a dark cloud. As for me, I don't regreat the time we had together and I wouldn't trade anything to not have been loved by him. For now, I am neutral and feel like nothing will never ever, replace him but then again, never say never. The aftermath is what we should all look forward to, hoping that someday everything will be clear once again.
Amarosa
.:I love my past. I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have it no longer:.






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Juggalette_43ver
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commentCommented on: Tue Mar 07, 2006 @ 09:09pm
awww...I hope you're okay cry


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