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I'm sorry for anyone who ends up reading this entry but I cannot hold in my stress any longer! I can't talk to anyone about it! This stress has been in my head for 2 years or more since my parents divorsed! My brother is ok, we seem to get along better, like we can live with ourselfs but that's because my parents seem to get angry at use for no reason they yell at us for the stupidest reasons. My brother will stand for me which I really appreciate. But The it does end, my teacher Madame Rose won't get off my back about homework! She even thinks I should stay after school! I brought in some gay little sheet in like 2 days late but no! She has to make a big deal about it! Also in the summer I accidentaly shot my friend with a pellet gun and was 3 inches from hitting his thouht and possibly sending him into surgery, when ever I think about it I feel like slittin my wrists thinking that I almost killed my best friend. You now how hard it is to talk to his parents, every else has forgot about but me, I seriously feel like just getting i front of every in my life and yelling this out, I mean if I didn't let this out I'd end up taking it out on someone who didn't deserve it. The only thing that can calm me down are my friends, playing guitar and listening to music. I felt like just jumping out the window at school. The more I think about the stuff and not tell someone I just go crazy. Trust me if anyone who's reading this that doens't know me in real life I'll seem like my life is going fine, no. WRONG! My brother is alwasy getting my parents pissed with his music and how he acts. LET HIM BE! Just keep off his back, if he wants to become a pro-skater then let him. Let him do want he wants to, if he wants to drop out from high school let him. If he says he doesn't wanna go to BC for a job for the summer then stop asking him 20 times a week! well I think I've got most out it out of my system, theres some stuff I couldn't even say on gaia where my parents will never see. This other stuff I won't say is for two reasons, becuase I'm gonna scream it out of my system late at night on march break and because it's t secret for me to let out, even to my friends... Don't go thinking I'm some winy kid, my life is stressful, and it had to get out before I hurt someone or myself... This is my only entry you'll see like this from, ever. Now if you'll excuse me I'm gonna go relax and try to forget...