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I feel so horrible. crying I miss steven because i met a guy who wanted to be my bf and i sed yes and he sucks compared to steven. Steven was so romantic, and sweet, and loving, and protective of me. I think that i actually LOVED him. Be cause it hit me like a bullet when i broke up wit him! I feel so stupid for doing so. So i went bak to him today and asked him out and he sed there is someone else that he knows for real that he might go out with but if that dont work out then he will be mine. I feel stupid for breaking up wit him and for asking him out again. I feel humiliated that he sed no. I feel angry that i would be his SECOND choice. And i feel heart broken and sad that he doesnt want to be my bf. I feel like i was shot with another bullet and i just wanna die. crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying I'm Cursed!!!