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Just turn it off

I lie to feel better.
We all do it to hide the hurt.
In truth, everything is nothing.
Shadows are heavier, weighing me down.
Cold strikes the very fiber of my being.
Being alone again is the the worst dream.
I wish I could have her back,
But, truth be told, she no longer loves me.
I try to hate her for how she made me feel,
But love keeps such feelings from me.

I try to forget, I put away the memories.
However, something is always there to remind me.
What can I do to rid me of these thoughts?
How do you destory such memories of love and friendship?
There is nothing I can do but suffer my loss,
As she enjoys new company already.
And in that I am stuck forever in a veil of shadows,
Never letting emotion take over again.
Never. Ever. Again.

I must move on with my life.
Must keep my head up high.
If not then I will surely crumble under the pain.
It's time to find, not new love, but new memories,
To replace the void left in my heart and mind.

I can't go.
I just can't do it.
Love is still holding me back.
I know I shouldn't give her my love,
But it's something I've done for almost a year.
I wish there was a button you can press to restart a relationship.
Or better yet, just to turn off emotions.
Whatever it takes to make this pain finally end.