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I realize that I've basically made myself a hermit in my home. Only coming out on the weekends when people WANT me. Whatever, man, I'm not some convenient lap dog that'll just come to the fat lady that owns them because he wants some attention. Of course, not having a car is probably is the big issue to that. Probably pretty annoying after a while to pick someone up then drop them off after everything's done and over and you wanna go to bed. Yeah.. But I don't wanna be a burden, but my parents don't get that. I need a car, to make my life in school a lot easier for one. I hate waiting for rides when I need to get home to do homework. I feel like having a car would fix everything wrong in my life. I would have a social life, my grades would improve, it'd let me see my girlfriend in Ohio. It needs to happen, and soon. Sitting at home all day isn't something I particularly like doing. I try to hold a job, and I always get let go at some point. Lost my butcher job because I got replaced by the guy I replaced in the first place. WTF right?

I need a car. If I had a car, my life would be simple, and I wouldn't need to make this journal entry. Instead, I sit at home doing homework all day, playing a video game here and there. But I know I find homework to be more interesting so I just go back to that. Seriously, it's freaky stuff, I'll play World of Warcraft and just randomly say, "I WANNA DO HOMEWORK".

My girlfriend. Kristina. My sunshine, my lovely lady. I love her so much, and she's so far away. If I had a car, I could fix our issue too. She's such a sweet girl, she has her head on her shoulders unlike most of these bitches out here. So beautiful to boot... I wanna see her, I need a car.

I hate it. I hate being encumbering to my friends, or at least the 3 or 4 friends I have at all. It sucks.

I could be the total opposite of who I am you know. I could be a total douche, but I'm so worried that I'll piss you guys off that I'm just a fountain of niceness. Sometimes I have something to say to all of you, sometimes I wanna speak my mind, but I don't because I'm scared you'll never hang out with me again.

Meh. I know it'll change, it will. Eventually.