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I really don't know why I try every day of my life to do the right thing & no matter what good I do I always end up suffering for others wrong doing.

I have no friends for the fact that if I'm not constantly giving to get used so they won't have nothing to do with me. Too many users in life..... I only have my breath left.... that would be suicide if I give that.

Try to get a job & husband never answers his phone to see if it is a job opportunity for me.
Like he would, he couldn't even keep a vehicle working for me when I had a $10 an HR job!

I have to get a job or I am nothing, just a leach in his eyes....... I don't even go out to spend money.

My husband is more into himself now that we are married & before we were married all he did was cheat & leave me behind.

I have only one dress up outfit, worn once to get married in.

Never got a honeymoon & still hoping I get an anniversary that hasn't happened yet, after three years.

I sit waiting to clean the next mess my family makes, nothing more.

I even get blamed for doing things I have no idea was happening, thanks Matt!

Why the hell is it okay for everyone to act and talk how they want, even badly, but as soon as I make one GOOD decisions everyone jumps down my throat?

If this is Gods way of making me stronger, God needs to STOP.
& NOW I have a cold for the New Year?!
OH COME ON!

REALLY?