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I've been thinking about it lately. Is it one of those things that you feel in every bit of you, or is it more subtle? Watching TV, reading books, it makes you think it's the great magical wonderful thing that is everywhere all at once, and once you're in it, your vision is trimmed with roses and hearts. You know what I mean? I always worried if I wasn't heavy in it like that, then I wouldn't really be in love. But the love I have experienced, was more subtle than that, though once I think about it, it was everywhere. It didn't become a life sustaining force, it was more like a honey that made life sweeter. And I always thought that being in Love would be one of those things where you can't see past the other person, they take center stage. But what I've felt, yes they are important, but we must keep our head above the water. Is this my Love? But maybe I failed to do that anyways. I mean, I thought I would feel something greater than what I've always felt. But I'm actually glad this is not the case. Take my nephew for instance. He hasn't been around for four months yet, and he is a smelly, fussy little thing that you can sometimes tell is angry if you don't make that bottle fast enough. But I do love him, don't I? I adore him, and I enjoy making him smile. He makes me mad sometimes, and I think he is spoiled. But I would never hurt him, and I would never let anyone hurt him, if I had any say in the matter. It's funny to think, if this is really what love is. You can think badly of this person(even if you really, really don't want to), but it doesn't change the way you feel about them. It doesn't change what you really think of them. I know I'm blurring the line between family love and romantic love, but I believe these things are the same for both. I expect more from someone I am in love with, rather than someone I love. But I guess this brings up the question, is it requited? Bu that's for another time.

So I never mentioned this, and I wish I had, but Christmas was pretty nice. We had Laura, we had Kaleb, we had our cousins from Houston. Everyone was there, and then we went to Louisiana. We had some moments, both pleasant and not so pleasant. We laughed, watched fireworks, and even had a little something to drink. (Crown Royal and Vodka are not my thing, even mixed with coke) I wish I could remember more details, but it really was a lot of fun. I love my family.

At work, there has been some crazy stuff. One of the keyholders chased off our store managers, and we got a visit from Corporate to find out what was going on. This key holder had an attitude, was snippy, and didn't like my sarcasm, so I couldn't say much in her defense. But she's still here, at least for now, though she is no longer a key holder. (Thank you Lord) lol So now we play the waiting game... oh funny, I've been playing the waiting game everywhere for a while now...