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the past few weeks or so

this school year is passing quite fast and what's next, the reserved officer's training corps. still looking at the morbid things in life as i progress to my future but striving for the title of a second lieutenant at the age of 21 or even 20 if i play my cards right will be something else.

not much concern with my friends outside of orchestra class but friends and classmates alike in class we have to pick it up if we want to perform a lot better. it's been such a hassle just trying to sight read and practice and repeat our ending piece over and over again for spring concert. articulations, bow tilt, closer to the frog..a lot of responsibility for just one last concert. i know its out last concert but we i cant blame anyone else but myself since we all play a part in this piece.what to do..

prom prom prom..is going to be..not really caring much.
mom and dad want me to go since they keep bugging me about how this is your last and you should enjoy it so im going with friends and a date..no, not for me either because i didn't want to go or maybe because i said no to two of my friends. ho-hum..but i think i date will just make it sluggish and besides im driving again for like 5 people but thank the great deity in the sky its not my car and a bonus its an Audi A6. just the whole business of drama and heartbreak and all this confusion makes it a lot harder for me to concentrate on my school work or i was just not planning to go..hmm yah ill stick with that.

next friday..oh geez.
i have been in mixed martial arts..you know that ufc stuff yah..for about 2 years now and i plan to finally have my last competitive fight this upcoming friday. i just cant stick with it since i have been getting interviewed by recruiters from the military and some universities but not a lot and to top it off balancing school work is too much. i agreed to my trainer that this upcoming fight will be my last fight until i have enough free time though i will still practice my styles and perfect them or atleast polish them up. ive been training a lot and i had previously had training after school today and i have one tomorrow early in the morning. when i moved to our new home i really couldnt find a way to relate to people and after quitting high school sports i found the world of mixed martial arts..so much fun and it does hurt but what you get after is confidence and self respect for yourself and the other fighter and i love how so many people think it's a game if only the knew they will become better people.

clothe donations and the what is worth giving to the community.
it has been a whole since i tried on any of my old clothing and well they have gotten quite big on me..really its that big. when our family moved i was a 2XL and currently i can tell you that a medium feels good but a small puts definition and when i tell people that i was fat and how much weight i was they really cannot believe that i was that big. but back to the topic i donated my old clothing to an organization where they clothed and fed the homeless. i was intrigued by how these people made their food and how they acquired the ingredients. one of the people who organized this had visited san francisco where they do the same thing and how they acquire the ingredients to make the food..really cant put it out there but it is a special thing that they are doing for these people. i may plan to volunteer here during May possibly cause seniors have an early out in our district..YES.

change of music genre..wow how did that happen?
i love rock and all it's guitar glory but what i have been doing was expanding my mind to more genres of music ever since i joined orchestra. i got into hip hop and i dont mean the slow grind main stream rubbish..i mean the underground kind of hip hop that real stuff. the metaphors and symbolism that the artist gives to each of their songs makes it so that you keep thinking on and on about what the message is. and from hip hop i came to jazz and well..jazz is my most favored genre of music currently because of how complex and i love how i can dance to it. in my previous entries i spoke of a keyboard or stage piano..hip hop brought me to jazz and jazz brought me to the world of improvisation. it is a lot of fun since jazz is not just random keys being played but how my piano teacher quotes, "it is how you dance with it..", and i still practice and practice to get the feeling of dancing and i usually feel it. im talking like i had so many years of practice but honest enough i have been playing for a year and 7 months..i do keep track because my mom tells me it is important to count how long you have been playing an instrument..then i told her thats what those certificates are for..well gosh darn aint it wrong to be some what right.

ROTC..student..train..soldier.
to those who are curious ill keep it at a minimum but i am planning to join the military and i have no problem in doing so. mom and dad always encouraged it and well im doing this for myself so i can accomplish my dreams and my dream career and to serve this great country of ours.

well..here's something i follow and i hope you all follow as well..

"...I'm trying to make it in a world full of apathy asking God what else does he have for me I'm timeless i am a beautiful mess through the joy through the pain through the worst and best im timeless."

-L.A. Symphomy



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