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I have been seeing a lot of friends on gaia dating and getting online married. It gets me depressed for I feel like I have been and will be alone for the longest time. Then I feel alone and wish that there was a significant other for me even if it is on gaia. Although I did promise never to gaia date ever since my last gaia gf broke up with me after I asked her to marry me. I don't get it I am good with getting to be friends with girls...no surprise the first friends I had at school were girls, but anyways I can never fall in love with one or have one ask me out. That just makes me feel oh so happy that for the whole 19 years...well 9 years if you count dating in elementary school dating, I haven't had a good gf. And you know how you never forget you first love....it is true I can never forget mine. God I sound so pathetic right now. Well if I have been alone this long I guess that means that either I am not attractive, or I don't find any girl attractive, which in turn is my fault since I never get too many girls that want to go out with me. So yeah that is what I have had on my mind or a while now. >.>