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Dependent
I've known for a while now how dependent i am on my friend Kaite, as a friend of course. But i just watched a movie where two friends atop being friends and i thought if me and Kaite weren't friends anymore i wouldn't know what to do. I am one of those people who doesn't know how to take care of myself, i have been friends with her for 5 or so years now. And once i even broke down crying cause i thought she was going to kill herself because this boy made her mad. We even had plans to live together and go to Vegas, as though we'd be friends forever. I hope that's true, I'm a quiet person, not very interested in boys and not all that pretty, so i cant go and kiss her boyfriends or something, i don't like anyone in particular so there is no way for her to go and have sex with a guy i like. I don't talk behind her back and she doesn't talk behind mine, and even if she did, i don't get mad at my friends no matter what they do. And i don't do anything that could possibly piss her off in anyway without her telling me and then i don't do whatever that was. It's a leader and follower type of friendship, and i am completely fine with that, since i have to have someone to follow... but if i had noone to follow then I'd probably break down, i mean I'd be more depressed than i am now. And the only reason I'm saying this is because noone actually reads these...
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