A quest for relevance.
I have this friend who I often feel means more to me than I do to her. It's a dreadful feeling that brings with it a horrible emptiness, self-doubt and, occasionally, hatred. It isn't fair. I should know that people express themselves and how they feel in different ways, and at varying intensities. I do know that, but I often have trouble putting theories into action.
All too often I'm reminded of the lyrics 'You don't know what you've got 'till it's gone", which are, in my opinion, particularly relevant to my situation, if not my side of the fence.
I fear that I mean more to some of my friends than they mean to me, which makes me feel incredibly guilty. But we can't help how we feel about people. I just hate to think that the boot really does switch feet when I'm around that one, aforementioned friend.
No one wants to feel like they can be replaced at the drop of a hat. So, is there anything you can do to increase your worth in someone else's eyes?
Time, maybe. But I've never been a particularly patient person.
I do hope that if I ever get married or find 'the one' that I'll be confident, but not arrogant, that they love me in the same way, and just as much.
I guess you never really know people.
PEOPLE AREN'T WRONG BECAUSE THEY FEEL DIFFERENTLY THAN YOU AND ON DIFFERENT LEVELS OF INTENSITY THAN YOU!
