Tired
Wore a skirt today and painted my nails like a rainbow, ha it felt so weird. Of course when I was wearing the skirt around town and in walmart and places, I was wearing tennis shoes, a muscle shirt with a tank top over it and the skirt was like long so I was not dressed right and I probably stood out of place. Lol this lady in the grocery store stared at me for a good minuet but I didnt really care that much, it was amusing since I kept twisting and turning, swishing the skirt around. When I painted my nails, it was kind of difficult since I kept touching something and it messed it up or made it look like I painted it like hmm I dunno but it sucked and I know I am not gonna be a professional nail polisher anytime soon. Danced last night for the first time on a wii on just dance, that was amusing as well, though of course I didn't want to do it at first and let me tell you, I suck at that too, kept going the wrong way or I was just not dancing right or something. Just got home a little bit ago, spent the night with a friend and I didn't even feel like leaving at all but I did. If I had the choice I probably wouldn't leave ever but ha that is unrealistic but then again, I am very unrealistic as I probably mentioned before somewhere. Laying here in my bed wanting to pass out but I can't just yet. Filling up my lungs with smoke, i'm about to quit but every time i've tried, I dunno, I just mess up and light one up. I've been smoking for almost three or four years, but may 26 i'm done, maybe even before then cause sometimes, I just get tired of the need, the wanting, all of it. It's not easy but i'm gonna go cold turkey eventually. Hmm, feel free to wish me luck gaians.
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