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It's very important for people to feel popular and well liked,I never understood this compulsion. Sometimes I pretend to be alone so I had no one to act normal for,I could release my constant mask of 'happy,cheerful,friendly' me. I worked at a car rental agency 40 hours a week and that meant 40 hours of pretending, my job mostly consisted of paper work but sometime I had the unfortunate privilege of dealing with people. Today was one of those unfortunate times this obnoxious,loud,infuriating woman was complaining that she wouldn't pay for the extra fee's she got billed for.
"I'm sorry for the inconvenience ma'am but you kept the car two weeks past the time you arranged to rent it ,you have to pay the extra fee's" I plastered on the best sympathetic expression I could and tried not to let my annoyance show in my voice "That just won't do! Do you know who my husband is?! I can't believe you people!" she was turning red with anger and all I wanted to do was scream at this idiotic woman 'it doesn't ******** matter who your husband is or how much better you think you are then everyone else just pay the ******** fees and let us move on with our lives' but I needed this job to pay my rent so I had to be pleasant. We were doing this back and forth argument for two hours now"Ma'am please understand this is nothing personal the company is just following policy we don't want to loose you as a customer but these fee's need to be paid, we are willing to work with you and do a payment plan. These are the options we have for paym-" I began to say but she cut me off "Payment plan!!! Who do you think I am some low life poor person that can't afford her bills!?" She shot out of her chair and leaned on my desk pointing her finger right at my face she was almost touching me "You listen to me I can buy this whole company three time over you idiot!!" I gently moved her hand away from my face resisting the urge to stab my pen threw the hand that was still on my desk. "Ma'am please calm yourself" I said threw a clenched jaw my irritation clear on my face. "Calm down?! you want me to calm down after bluntly insulting me!?" I gripped my pen consider how deep in her chest a pen would go and how much force I needed to put behind it "I never intended to insult you ma'am,would you like me to have another one of our representatives talk to y-" she then cut me off again before I could finish "I refuse to deal with any more people! This company is filled with morons for even charging me in the first place! I can't wait till I tell my husband about this whole ordeal then you all will be sor-" That when I snapped I flew out of my chair whipped around my desk and jabbed my pen as hard as I could in her throat,that should shut this obnoxious b***h up. I returned the shock on her face with a dark smirk " I'm sorry are you not satisfied with our services?" I then yanked the pen out of her throat and began to wipe it off on her expensive ruffled blue shirt. She gasped for air and clenched at her throat I assume to try and stop the bleeding but she was bleeding out on my office floor "H- He- Hel-" she struggled to say "Help you? Honestly I tried but you had your mind set on being as obnoxious as possible." I looked down at her when I said this in hope to stir more fear in my victim, we spent what felt like seconds with that dark smirk still on my face when there was a knock on my office door.
"s**t" I mumbled under my breath walking over to the door I cracked it open "Yes?" My fake friendly smile plastered on my face "Oh are you still with Mrs.Hanson? I have some papers I need you to go over and I would like to speak with Mrs.Hanson when you are done." My boss was a pudgy man with a stern policy on treating our customers like royalty. " Oh Mrs.Hanson already left she was very unhappy with the fee's we charged her but I think I smoothed things over with her nicely,I can start that paper work right after my lunch break if you would like but honestly Mrs.Hanson was a handful to deal with and I think I'll be taking my break in about five minutes."I smiled sweetly at the pudgy man "Yes that will be fine I'll be leaving also I have a few errand to run. The papers are on my desk lock up when your done I won't be back till tomorrow morning" The pudgy man turned away giving me a quick wave as he left. I must be losing my touch killing a woman in my office? My dark passenger was getting out of hand I cant get caught, getting caught meant losing the only thing I cared for,I wouldn't get to see him. "Now what to do with you Mrs.Hanson...." I said squatting next to my victim and turning her lifeless face so she was looking at me. I let her face plop to the floor and stood up looking out my office window out onto the rental floor.
My pudgy boss had his coat over his arm and he was talking on his cell phone as he began to leave he never looked back,At least I didn't have to worry about him seeing me get rid of Mrs.Hanson. One problem would definitely be the cameras, but maybe I could cause a 'black out' just one flip of the power switch and I would have about five minutes to get Mrs.Hanson out of the building and into my trunk, any longer then that and my boss would start asking questions,that was the last thing I wanted to deal with. I should have known better then to get involved in customer services I always ended up either losing my job or causing one hell of a mess to clean up. I walked out of my office to quickly grab the papers my boss wanted me to finish I wouldn't have any time to do them in between dealing with Mrs.Hanson and my already planned victim coming over tonight I was now swamped. I smiled to myself "I'm a busy busy bee" With the papers still in my hands I slipped over to the power box and quickly flipped off the switch that controlled the cameras. After throwing Mrs.Hanson in my trunk I returned to my office and looked down at the pool of blood on the linoleum,I sighed and grabbed a few rolls of paper towels and bleach out of the janitors closet and began to ruin the art of Mrs.Hanson's last moments. By the time I got to my house I was only fifteen minutes away from my guest arriving"Shouldn't have killed Mrs.Hanson,Ugh it was reckless and a close call" was I scolding myself? Ha I guess I am. I began to drag Mrs.Hanson to my basement, God why did this woman have to be so fat? It must have taken me more then fifteen minutes to get her down the stairs of my basement because by the time got back into my kitchen the doorbell was ringing. I was leaning over the kitchen sink after quickly washing my face and arms of Mrs.Hanson's blood,I looked up at my reflection in the window I looked tired.
I opened my front door to the busty blond I had been talking to for a while "Hello beautiful,ready to have a little fun?" She was one of those Gothic types that get off on having rough sex,and she just so happened to be a lesbian. This worked out because I liked toying with girls like her in my free time but tonight I wasn't in the mood to play with my prey. I opened the door wide not saying a word and I quickly shut it behind her,how should I do it,Something quick? No that just wasn't my style I liked to saver the moments me and my prey had together, after all it was a priceless thing watching them die why shouldn't I give them my full attention? "I brought vodka"She sang sweetly with a seductive look in her eyes "nice should we go into the kitchen and take a few shot or would it taste better in the bedroom?" I smirked at her leaning against the door. "I don't care where we drink,but I think it would taste better with you as my chaser" she said before letting the skimpy dress she was wearing slid off her, she was standing there in nothing but thigh high fish nets and black stilettos. I took a moment just taking in the view " Well you get straight to the point" I walked over to her giving her a long passionate kiss,she attempted to strip me while still kissing down my neck and nibbling. We ended up in the kitchen with me lifting her on the counter while kissing her neck,she began to shudder and whispered"we should at least open the vodka,I don't want it to go to waste and we have all night to continue our make out session" It was official she knew how to ruin a moment,but I did as she asked and pulled two shot glasses from a shelf. Half the bottle was gone when she said something that excited me and made me nervous at the same time. " You have a basement?Oh that would be such a kinky place to finish what we started" She winked and started to wobble over to the basement door,this girl couldn't hold her liquor this was promising. "So that's what your into? Basement sex? I don't even have a washer down there" she began to open the door and look down the stairs"why is it so dar-?" right at that moment I pushed her down the stairs "oops" I muttered to myself. She didn't even scream falling down the stairs but the shrieking began right when I turned the light on,I wonder if she noticed Mrs.Hanson. "Oh my god! oh my god! is she dead?!" she was frantically looking around for something maybe a weapon or exit I suppose. "Yes she's dead,I thought you goths liked death and morbid things?" She looked terrified and for a brief moment hurt,like I was breaking up with her.People read to deeply into everything,just because we have a physical relationship doesn't mean you are important to me. I walked over to her kissed her on the cheek and whispered in her "sweetie why do you look so hurt?did you think you were special?" She began to cry "I thought we had something special,please don't hurt me I won't tell a soul. please!" she begged me while she clung to herself. "You were just a toy,something to entertain me in my free time."
I stood up and started walking back to the kitchen,once I got there I grabbed the butcher knife from the counter that I had laying on a cutting board. I slipped it in he back of my pants and started down the stairs "sweetie"I called out sweetly. Once I was at the bottom of the stairs I saw her rocking in the corner eyes glued on Mrs.Hanson I could barely hear her but once I got closer to her I could hear her clearly "please don't hurt me,please oh god please don't hurt me" I slashed her throat open and blood squirted all over me. "you've never been so beautiful honey" I said to her as she leaned against the wall eyes going dull and lifeless. I sighed,I felt relaxed some people did yoga, others had cocktails, I killed people.
I wonder if he would find me beautiful covered in blood? He had to know what I was doing, he only ever came to me after I killed. I didn't feel like cleaning myself up I went up to my bed and laid sprawled out on my bed naked and covered in blood,I was so relaxed and comfortable I began to drift off to sleep when I felt a breeze. I looked lazily over to my window and saw him leaning against my open window "you truly are beautiful my sweet" He said with a smirk on his face.