Guess you guys are all doing good. Everything in my life doesn't seem to be happening on time or have good timing anyway. How could I have gone from who I was then to who I am now? I'm stronger now yes, but I can't seem to forget you. Us not being together is just....real. Like really real. I'm with him yes, and right now he's my everything. I don't want to lose him, but I don't want to lose you either. I don't know what I'm suppose to do. Should I try to make it work with you and leave him? No. I couldn't do that, and I'm sorry to say it, but I won't. I will always love you, and part of me doesn't want you to ever talk to me again cause it just brings back all of those memories and I want to cry my self to death, but at the same time I want you to there. As support, and my friend. I don't want to lose you cause then it all will be just a dream. Dreams that I'm debating are true and really did happen or not. I want things to go back to the way the used to be, but my life keeps trying to prove itself is better and getting easier, so it's making me want to stay where I am in it. I miss you, and I love him. I can't and don't want to lose you, or him. He has to come over you, but I can't lose you. You've been there since the first day of that summer. You showed me that I truly do want to become a singer. You and everyone else have had faith in me, saying that I can do it. I don't want to let any of you guys down, and right now, I'm still keeping that promise. I now know that there always is something worth living for, and fighting for. Right now, you and him are the two people that I'm fighting for. My bestiest friend who's a sister to me, yes I'm fighting for her too. I'm fighting for all of you guys. I don't want to lose any of you. You've made me into the person I am today, and I'd like to thank you for that. Hopefully some time in the near future I'll get a computer so I'll post some videos of me singing, and hopefully I can get practice and end up on a singing contest show, or if I'm really good enough, I'll be discovered by some famous music producer, and live my dream. I will do everything that I can to make you and all of my friends's dreams come true, and be there supporting you through it all. Yes, my past was amazing, and my present is looking good so far, but the future always is full of surpirses and hopefully I have my friends there by my side to help me through every turn and bump that I may face. I love you guys, and I love my friends dearly. I can't wait to see you in the future, and see my friends again.
Works good. Lobby sucks, but ehh I'm good at cleaning. Have my work out 7;30a.m.~9a.m. and my high school Monday ~ Thursday. Gonna work to get that dream bikini body that I want, since everyone keeps telling me I'm not fat or chubby and I'm skinny. xp Whatever, but I don't see it. Hopefully I can see myself that way, and get my bikini body before school starts. I'm gonna talk to my parents soon about taking some singing classes or something so I can get my practice before school starts since I might hopefully get choir as one of my classes, and I really want to do good. Not just good, but amazing. Well, that seems like about everything for this login that I can think to say. I hope that all of you guys are okay, and doing good. I can't wait to talk to you guys soon. If you wanta talk, I'm always here. Sure I login rarely, but if you wanta talk, I'l do my best to get on so I can write you guys back faster. I'll post another entry later, when I'm back online. I love you guys, and I'll talk to you later. Bye.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r81xalnrGtQ new song that I'm obsessed with. Hope you guys like it. wink
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