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I dreamt I was at a new school for a movie shoot kind of thing. I was basically an extra whenever they needed someone to fill a gap or whatnot.

There were still people in that school still going about their day. I talked to a few of them. They were showing off some of the school trophies and then mentioned this girl. "She was the weirdest girl ever" was the way she talked about her. I looked at her and asked why. "She just was strange. But she killed herself not too long ago. She was 21." I stared at her picture and didn't understand why her picture would be in a school if she didn't go to it anymore...

I thought a while and said "She didn't kill herself. There's no way she did." Staring at her photo was enough for me to realize she may not have had the best of life, but she seemed genuinely interested in the world. Her hair was slightly frizzy and out of place, and her picture was her walking without knowing someone was taking a picture. Which seemed generally odd as well.

I asked the girl if I could see her locker. The girl gave me something better. It was a composition notebook. Which seemed empty except for one page near the beginning with a few numbers on it which seemed to come out of nowhere. After seeing that I was able to read the rest of the notebook. It sucked me into her story to a point where I was in her shoes instead of just reading.

She lived in a little shack that needed a lot of work. It seemed like it should have been condemned. Her age seemed to be more in the lines of 10-11 whenever I was pulled to this point. Her room was dark and dusty and she shared the house with abandoned children and her "mother and father," Which seemed more like just squatters who "took care" of the children.

Her journal consisted of her mentioning when she wrote in her pink diary that had a lock and a few journeys outside. She tended to have horrifying images in her composite notebook if you skipped ahead so you had to read it in order. She sat on a bank to a small creek and would fish for money. Apparently it would help her take care of some baby birds she found.

It skipped to a picture of her with a snake on the next page. Herself peaceful and the snake at ease with her as well. Her face was half snake (covered in scales and lightly indented where her nose would be, but shaped like a snake's). During this point in time it felt as if she was about 14. Her diary talked of a boy she had befrieneded and had a mild crush on. He was a very genuine guy who came to pick her up in the morning. Her mom had found out she had a crush and had decided to intervene. Her :mom: told her how useless it is for her to fall in love and she should just do other things instead.

Her "dad" watched him as he came by to pick her up for school to walk with her. He got frustrated with him and ended up punching him in the back of the head. The girl dragged the boy away and walked him to school where it was "safe". His short term memory had been wiped from a concussion. He still liked being around her but communication was difficult.

She came back to her shack only to be more harassed. She would go back to the bank of the creek and sit there and fish. The sporty guys of her school poked fun of her. The girl went further down where there was a large black beast in the water. She wasn't scared even though she knew not to go near it...

and then my dream cut itself off.