i dont think people are actually gona read this, which is good because im just using it to vent i guess. it seems like everything this summer is just going off the railing. everything awful that could happen is totally happening. and then for periods of time i try and forget it and everything seems all good, something else comes crashing down. like a couple months ago i was thinking damn my life is just too great, im doing well in school, summers comming, im in love, i have friends who love me too, i have my first job which is totally easy, everythings all great.
gah like everything got awful after that, my babycakes left to paris after breaking up with me and i was left under the impression that he was going after another girl, which made me jealous and depressed. then what happens? i get ******** sexually assulted by a creepy old guy i worked with who proclaimed his love and like asked me for sex. so good bye best job in the world, now i have to go find a new one. then i find out my mom has stage 2 high blood pressure, which is serious and theres not really much to do for that. so what happens? im sexually abused and i still have nightmares of it, and my moms sick too, thats something you really dont think about- your parents dying, like you just dont because its too upsetting. so im loveless, jobless, and with an ill parent, terrible already. to add ontop of that i was going through an identity crisis causing me even more spontanious depression so all that just through me over the edge.
so a good month or 2 go by and im better, not thinking about it, still in love, and hoping he misses me just as much as i do, i wana make things right again.
well, now my dogs sick too. my little puppy who ive had for 11 years is having kidney issues.
its terrible, you can see the sadness in her eyes, feel her bones, and she can bareley even get out of bed. she doesnt eat, and she seems like shes in too much pain to even sleep. so here i am sitting with her, summers almost over, and im thinking, what kind of ******** best summer ever was this?
sure i had some great times at camp and with my friends and with my former cutiebuns, but wheres that now? its still there and i think about it to keep me happy, but like, shitloads of huge s**t just pilled ontop of it causing my happiness to sufficate almost
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Once, on dark mountain, there lived....... the awesome one.
The awesome one's name was not to be spoken out loud, or else metal spoons will fall from the sky. The awesome one's name is..... Fauntlouroy.
The awesome one's name was not to be spoken out loud, or else metal spoons will fall from the sky. The awesome one's name is..... Fauntlouroy.
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