art is good for people like me. . . . anti-sexuals i mean. . . . it allows us to create the perfect people . . . . dont get me wrong; perfect doesnt mean like robotic, happy-ville perfect. it means where all the characters have flaws but are able to realize them. it means that the pretty guys have personalities that can match when it really comes down to it. it means that truth can come out. realizations about the way real people are can be shown but twisted so that the world isnt so depressing. . . . you can create the most mystical, beautiful places with the most amazing people and the most magical stories. . . . you can make things as realistic or completely surreal as you want. I dont ask for things to be perfect or magical, but reality is that people dont even try to be good anymore and the world itself has turned ugly. only at night or during the most powerful storms can true beauty, flawed yet pure beauty can be seen and felt. and only in our wildest dreams, whether we are awake or asleep, can we truly meet wonderful people, not perfect but still wonderful.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- a continuation on that topic april 18 6:48pm gaia time
i was on my way to 3-D studio when i remembered how good of therapy this art class was. How/Why is it good thereapy?? because when you are handed a chissle(along with other tools) and you have a giant block of plaster, YOU CAN GET ALL YOUR ANGER AND FRUSTRATION OUT VIA HACKING AND STABBING. . . . and even if all your anger and what not doesnt go away, at least its good practice for when you go insane and start hacking people to bits with a giant butcher knife. . . .
although, i wonder, if maybe most people are insane already. . . . insane people wouldnt be able to tell who they hate and who they dont. . . . insane people dont care about who they really are, just what they want others to think they are. . . . which is "normal" or "common" or promiscuous(sp)*coughsluttycough*. . . . insane people are people who actually like the world they live in and see it as a wonderful place and NEVER ONCE think of any other way that things can be. what if the only truly sane people are the ones that have decided to live in their "own world" . . . . people never seem to realize that when they are in this world other people are as well and those other people are just as real and have the same range of emotions and feelings and thoughts and you name it their is probably some similarity. They act as though this is the world they created for themselves, but really its just the one that we all must share. a kind of common ground. a really ugly common ground full of ugly people if you ask me. i myself would rather be "insane" and create my own little world, with my own people. no one would be 100% perfect but the vast majority would be able to realize this and ACCEPT it and not try to be something they arent. that doesnt mean they dont try to be a "better person", just that they accept that NO one is perfect and that Perfect is impossible. all you can do is try to be the best person you are capable of. thats another problem with this world. most people either think they are perfect or, if they realize they arent perfect, they think they are defective and either give up and become even worse or else they try to overcompensate for what they lack. kind of like someone with an eating disorder, like anorexia, where the usual cause is they believe they are "fat" and try to thin themselves out by starving themselves and depriving themselves of nutrients and doing non-stop excersize and well (i dont know much else about it so ill stop there with that stuff) whereas if they had been able to accept that they were fine just the way they are and that tiny little changes would have been acceptable, they would be alright and wouldnt turn to skin and bone. . . . people do the same thing with "niceness" . . . . if they think they are superficial or mean or something they may try to tell someone that "oh you look so pretty. i wish i had your [some random thing]" and they might have a giant, over-exaggerated look of happiness or envy on their face. . . . (btw, i happen to be one of those people who sees the world as being very insincere and dishonest and just down-right hideous as far as people go)
anywho, i tire of thinking and typing all this so i shall end this here and now. 7:09pm
Unni Ineo · Tue Apr 18, 2006 @ 04:20am · 0 Comments |