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"So what did you do those three days you were dead?"

I can't help but wonder how all the guys I go out with seem to find such beautiful friendships, or I guess they're not even beautiful but just successful.
Randy has two best friends, Mike and Rob, that he's had since he was like eight years old.

I can't even keep hold of a best friend for an entire year, we bicker and argue or some drama happens, we fall off the face of the earth, we push each other away, we let go.

But that's life, I guess. Maybe I'm just not someone that's meant to be around people or have tons of people in their life. I'm okay with that.

I do like my solitude, I do like my time with Randy, I do like meeting his friends, and I do want him to meet mine.

I want this relationship to be better than my last one, I want to make the effort to become friends with his friends.

He seems like he really wants this relationship, that he wants it to work.
He was funny, he told me he'd avoid girls in general because he only needs me now that I'm his girlfriend.
He says there are some stories he know will cross the line so he won't tell them.

But there's a strange easiness with him, something I feel like I've been missing for a while.
We can talk about it all, if we want to.

"You don't have to be so embarrassed, you don't have to impress me. I'm your boyfriend, that means I'm already impressed."
@_@

I don't know why I get so shy, I think its just in my nature.
But I'm glad you said yes to my question, so I guess we'll put it up there soon. :]

The only thing I'm really scared of is falling in love with you,
Because you make it seem so easy.
I look forward to date night tonight, mainsqueeze.
But its okay if you go out with the guys too, since I've seen you every day so far this week.