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The Black Hole That Is My Mined

Name: Waffel Age: 16 Hobbies: Drawing, Writeing and Roll playing.

Takashi Rinuku
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Posted: Sun Mar 09, 2014 @ 01:18am

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	I dont even know... Well this is probably a stupid idea...but this is the only place where my thoughts arnt monitored I guess... I am on anxiety/anti psychotic/anti depression meds now. The seem to be working mentally but do weird things to my hormones and s*t... I don't really ever get sad now...just angry and a painful longing empty whole feeling from time to time...I have a job now, slim hours right now but at least its something...and I should be moving out in the next two to three months into a nice apartment. In some ways Im suuuuuper excited to be moving...but at the same time I have this unexplainable uneasy feeling about it...sigh* I still feel like an a*...Its hard to keep quiet and I'm beginning to slip on reasons why I shouldn't...why we shouldn't. sigh* I guess I really and a scared confused little girl...I don't want to be...and I'm so sorry for the suffering Ive caused. I feel like less than dirt about it... Im so sorry...

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[i:b9df57be34][b:b9df57be34]"set me free
Let me be
I dont wanna fall another moment into your
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Torryn Mallory
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Mon Mar 10, 2014 @ 12:16am

I know I'm supposed to refrain from posting, but eh.....thanks to afew annoying people, I'm not exactly abundant in self-control.

The only place? Well....yeah...I won't even get started on my little rant about that, I'm sure my opinion is known.

Mm, well, the meds work somewhat, so that's something. The whole hormone bit sounds a tad worrysome though. It's a relief to hear you don't get sad as much, however this would explain where the random bouts of anger come from. Sorry to hear about the longing empty feeling though, vixen. =/
Job market, eh, it is what it is, sadly....hard as hell to find a job, and when you do, it's never what ya wanted....pity, really.

Ah, this bit is the biggest relief, you'll finally be getting out of all that mess. Feeling uneasy is understandable, it'll be your first time having a place of your own, no? However, if there's more to it than that, I'm not quite sure what to make of it.

Now....onto another point....you're not an a**. No. Bad. Think nicely of yourself, darn you. >;x The fact that your slipping on reasons worries me most, that, to me, implies things have gone to s**t......I do hope I'm wrong.

Remember though, you are what you allow yourself to be, so chin up, lil lady, you are more than you think yourself to be. Never look back and no more apologizing, you've lived in the now thus far, continue to do so, little warrior. o;

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