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My days have been up and down. Yesterday my friend [Honda Touru] slept over, it was fuun wink Then today, nothing big happened. My mom came home and ruined the day from boring to shitty. She is the most complicated mother....sometimes I dunno what to do. There are times when I go crazy and remember all the bad things that have happened in my life, and just go on a crying rampage.
Also my Grandma is really sick, she is bleeding in the head which is causing pressure to the brain causing headaches, and she is very depressed. She is hardly eating and drinking, and half of the time she doesn't know what the hell she is doing. She went from medical, to intense, and extreme care. It is so hard seeing her suffer from that. I have lost my grandpa in 2001, and slowly my grandma suffered from that and now I guess she is going down-fall for good after 5 years.
I dunno...I go from happy to sad...days I need intense pills, and days I don't....most days I see the lights, some rare days I see the darkness. Also I take a big fall when I hear or know that my friendsm or family isn't doing well, because I love them a lot. I always want them to be okay. Plus I am depressed for stuff happened to me when I a little girl...which would take a long time to tell you.
A few close friends of mine know. There always there for me when I am in need.
I see a school counselor and my pyschologist. As stupid pills are for people, they really help out with your body funtion.