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It's hot, you guys. No work right now, which means I have time to focus on my own beautification projects within the house. I intend to get in the kitchen and clean the upper cabinets. Those spiders have had it too good, for too long. There's something about starting a project early in the morning that makes me feel more organized, so that is on my agenda for tomorrow. I just have a really bad habit of staying up the majority of the night. It doesn't help that the other night, even when I attempted to put myself to bed, my thoughts kept me up. Which leads me to another thought.

That man. That man. I have never been so annoyed with someone, but still willing to talk to them. Or wanting, I guess I should say. He won't speak to me, which leaves me with a lot of feelings, but general confusion about what would be best to do next. And why he's doing what he's doing. It drives me crazy, but I don't want to give up. That's not going to get me what I really want. It's not like going 'Eff you too,' and blocking him is going to make me feel any better. I'll still have all these questions and unresolved feelings.