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Well, where do I start. As i child i wanted to be a firefighter, im sure the was pretty much any young boys dream, other than an astronaut, Like that would happen. Although that dream stuck with me for many years by the age of shall i say.... 12, i spent a lot of time making houses out of Lego, or bits of junk around the house. To be honest i thought i was rather good at the building so asked my mum if there was a career in building houses? Not that i knew exactly what it involved at that age. But that be came my dream job. To be an architect and design buildings, it was a good dream to have according to all of my teachers. All but one at least, my maths teacher who put me down instantly there and then saying i wasn't smart enough to do it and said i had no chance in ever making it. I tried my absolute best to prove him wrong but by the age of 15, I had failed Resistant materials, graphic design and get a low C in maths. For once my teacher was right and it turned out that i wasn't smart enough. Or maybe i was motivated enough by anyone. So what did i do? I decided to have fun, and be creative once more taking a course in media. Making films and things around that. I passed level 1 in the course and decided to take it further into college(high school if your American) Level 2 and 3 were just as fun to me and i loved almost all of it. Although I must admit i did let myself down at times when i got bored and messed around. The teachers once again came into play. Telling me and my parents in a meeting. That i was too stupid to pass the course and they suggested i quit, to save myself time and pain. I argued my case and fought on determined to pass the course. I did just that and Passed levels 2 and 3, with a solid B grade in each. During my time on the course I enjoyed building a set for a project and though that i could do it as a bigger thing. After all i wasn't interested in directing films. Just making the sets. I spent a good month and a half looking into universities about what i needed, and what course to take. I applied for 5... all for graphic design and art courses, and as a back up picked one course taking a Media degree in film. I was told no by 4. The 4 i wanted. Meaning i was left with just the film studies degree. I went thought and started it. Within a day or two I knew it wasn't for me and dropped out.

So....

Im now 19....

I have no intention of going into media anymore after wasting 4 years of my life trying to get into it, and i no longer know what i want to do anymore. Im currently a gardener and i can assure you that its not for me in the slightest. I hate it with a passion. I have applied for a job as a Race track marshal and i really do think i would enjoy that. I just hope my life goes well, all i truly want in life is a family and to be happy. Is that too much to ask for?