At 5:30 PM, my beloved cat Casey will be given the shot.
...She's not coming home this time. I'm sick to my stomach, I feel like I'm going to puke, and I can't go with Mom to watch her die. I can't. It breaks me to say this, but I never thought the meds would work. I thought it was false hope. It was a slim chance that they would work, but, they didn't. I'm extremely upset right now, and I'll be the same way tomorrow. If I cry tomorrow, I have a reason, and I'll need my space(no pun intended, NOT the site.) . Casey is hiding right now. I have to go get her in a few minutes and give her to Mom, and I'll never hear her purr or meow again. I'm so upset, I'm in tears. I don't want to have her go, but I can't watch her waste away from not eating anymore. Dad's offered to bury her, tomorrow. I think Dad's upset too, he has shown her affection, and let her come in his room, and he claimed to hate cats. I knew, besides my mom telling me, I KNEW she was going to be put to sleep today. I had a bad feeling it was today. I just want Casey to be out of pain.
What happened to her was her liver was failing, and she wouldn't eat. We gave her some meds to get her to eat, but she wouldn't. I bet Casey hates us more for forcing her to have nasty meds for a week. twice.
...I just brought Casey downstairs. She's leaving with Mom now. It hurts me to do something as put her in the carrier. But, I had to do it. I had to.
Now it's after 5:30. She's in Kitty Heaven now, with all the treats and milk she wants. She'll see Ting up there too, and they'll be friends, along with my Mom's cat Taffy. I'm glad to know she's out of pain, and the fact it'll just take us some time to get used to not hearing her around the house.
I want to thank everyone who has helped me and my family through this, and you all know who you are. I don't need to namedrop, you guys are awesome. Hopefully the next kittens we get are full of life, and very affectionate. I love you Casey aka: Kiki Brains, Sumo Kiki, Kiki Face, Case, Kiki, and Mama Ki.
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