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Sorrow's Fairy Tale


I thought I was better then this. I thought I could..I could be stronger. . .

These thoughts kept running through her mind over and over.She couldn't come to a conclusion..she couldn't. All these mood swings. It started with her happy normal self, and ended in her being the sad mopy girl she tried to hide. No one noticed, no one could tell. It suddenly became a ruitine. This would happen frequently, she'd lose control of her emotions and flip out.


This girls name was Sorrow. Her nickname, most people learned to call her that. It wasn't long till her saddness and pain came rushing back. All those memories..all those thoughts, what if's, what shoulds, what coulds, etc. Not too long ago her heart was crushed, slowly by slowly the broken peices of her heart fell and shatter on the ground like a peice of glass. A wonderful love, her first real group of friends. Her happiness, her youth. All in the past now. After losing all of those significant things that played an important role in her life, she began to lose hope. Unsure if she could stand back on her own two feet she started to lose hope. She became empty..nothing matter to her anymore..it was over..no use..no point in living.

Fowarding now to the future, here she is. At one point of her recovery..she was happy. Yes folks, amazingly, she had happiness once. However, happiness is a fragile thing for a sad little girl like her. One slip and it'll break. Apparently, this one still didn't learn her lesson, like the innocent girl she pretended to be, she cheated. Just as she did all those days, months, weeks ago. But wait..theres a reason..a reason in her mind which she thought was okay. But alas, cheating is never okay.

It was at the point where she began to feel loved. People wanted to be around her, they needed her..liked her, hugged her, snuggled her. Heh, all of the sweet tender caring things a person could do. Now, Little innocent Sorrow, believed that this love for her..would never end. She'd always have atleast one person there, with her. That gave her the strength to wake up every morning..

All of this love she got, continued to build the little ball of confidence growing in her tender heart. The more confident she became the more guys liked her, and the more she noticed them beginning to fall for her, she continued to be happy and giggly. Slowly Sorrow began to realize that she was making men like her too much. Oh yes, I forgot to mention, it seemed to be pretty obvious before. Sorrow had a boyfriend. It was sudden, how he came into her life. But she loved every minute just being with him, talking to him...He made her smile, laugh. The kind of laugh and smile she hadn't done ever since those memorable faded years.

She loved this man. His name. Well It was Song. Thats what she wanted to call him, reason being he would make beautiful music. Music that Sorrow dreamt of everynight. Music that draw Sorrow closer to Song everytime she heard his sweet voice.
But, back to the real point of the story, Sorrow could feel that saddness was approaching. She knew something bad..in her taped and glued heart. She could feel it loosen inside her chest.

One day Song introduced Sorrow to something called War. It was his best friend now. Along with a few others Sorrow didn't even care to make up names for. Song would tell Sorrow of how he must be strong for War. Sorrow didn't understand much of this War. She felt that War was mean, violent, and sad. She didn't want to think of anything sad..not anymore.

Yet, it never left her mind. War always there. Song right beside War. This worried her..and shook her loose heart. Hoping this would be the only thing on her bloated mind..she was wrong. Of course, when was she ever right? Never. Exactly.

Now, there was another guy. One who stayed with her, oddly. I seem to have forgotten to mention. He alway played an important part in our little Sorrows Fairy Tale. He was named Strength. He was a brother to little Sorrow, her taught her many things. How to be honest, to accept herself and how to enjoy life and be happy for what she has. She was happy around him too. Playing around, giggling, and telling Strength of her various silly encounters she had each day. For now, Strength was the only one keeping War out of her head..

Cutting through all the many events that took place between these three signifigant characters Sorrow, Song, and Strength.
I will finally get to the point where the rate at which Sorrow's happiness Kerblunked to the bottom of the ocean. To make this seem abit more clear. Sorrow was bascially put in the middle. The middle of both..Strength and Song.

After taking to her bestest long term amigo Sorrow began to get feelings to her brother like Strength. As did Strength. It came to the point that..Sorrow soon had another love in her heart. Someone else beside Song. Was that possibly? Well here's where the mistake comes in. To put it bluntly...

Sorrow Cheated.

If you recal I mentioned this little problem before. Yes, it's true. She cheated. At first, Sorrow knew it was her duty to make the decision. She needed to choose. Now at this point her poorly bonded heart shook and rattled. That thing..called H2O? Ya know..the stuff that comes form your eyes when you see a puppy get run over..Yeah thats what it was. Filling her eyes. Her marron eyes..She didn't want this..she lost control. She began the path of denial. Telling herself it's okay. it's okay to cheat. It's alright, no one will know. Thus, Sorrow continued her crime...not realizing the pain she was causing...

Hey, I never told you why. Why Sorrow made this choice. You wanna know? Whelp cause she didn't wanna be alone. RIght here, is the main part of the story, so if your still with me, pay the most attention here! Ever since those faithful past events Sorrows had a fear. A great fear. Whereas most people enjoyed it, she didn't. She hated to be alone. She didn't want it..it hurt her, it stung her..Losing anyone she had left now, would kill her. Atleast thats what played in little Sorrows Head..

Therefore, Sorrows conclusion was to be with both Strength and Song..knowing that if she left either one, they would leave her. And it could never be the same ever again...For several Days..she lived like this..exchanging the words "I love you" back and fourth..This slowly killed her. Along with her two most dearest loved ones Song and Strength. She thought she was innocent but soon realized it hurt them both..

Do ya wanna know what she did? Well, she didn't know. She had no choice. At the time Strength turned into a Stubborn. He did things not like he used to and it made Sorrow sad. She wasn't sure if it was her fault or not..but she knew..it made a sharp pain play in her heart. Song on the other hand..was making her smile and laugh, just as he always used too..Made her happy once again. Song was the only thing keeping the knife from stabbing her fragile heart. With his sweet healing songs and his sarcastic humor...

It's pretty obvious now..Sorrow..Had finally made the decision to leave Strength and be with Song. After finally confessing to him..she knew she had hurt him deeply..where he had not hurt her once..At that moment..she promised herself she would do anything in her power to make Song find that trust in her again..She WANTED to be with him...NEEDED..LOVED..him..Song was her life now.

I know I kinda left Strength out there but he's another story...The point is..This is Sorrow's Tale. Think it was all pointless? Well maybe. But look back on this..Don't make the same mistake Sorrow Made. The stories not over, theres more to tell but I see I've worn you out so I will save it for another time. It's an odd Fairy Tale, with an unfinished story..You know how they say the end is just the beginning? Well it's true. The rest of the story will be continued by Sorrow's next actions..The rest of the words written in your blank book wil be based on your actions. So if your Sad and lost and unsure. Look back on Little Sorrows Tale. Maybe you'll find an answer..maybe not?

The end is just the beginning..