i just want you to know about a really great song: https://youtu.be/e8uEdLCnrM4
and various patterns. i always come here when i feel alone. i guess i'm pretty cut off right now although i just spent saturday with four very good people confronting my fear of heights, speed, and drowning at dorney park. there were drowned beetles in the water, which i thought were cool. i also liked the spicy fried chicken at cafe soho. and singing in the car:
(in the derpiest voice) to the left...left...everything you own...box in left...in my closet...that my stuff...DON'T TOUCH DON'T TOUCH
and as usual here is a lull when he vanishes and i have a lot of imaginary conversations with the little him ghost in my head trying to find the words to reach him until i become so neurotic and upset that i end up having to write out the fact that i am doing the thing so as to take my mind off actually doing the thing.
(in the derpiest voice) you know what ******** up?
i know on some level i can do better, but that doesn't mean i don't value him and what he has to offer. and i forgive and forgive and forgive, and wonder where my breaking point is.
well each time i guess it gets a little closer.
even most ******** up is the guy i'm dating right now had to comfort me and tell me "it's ok, he just doesn't know how to express that he cares and he will be back and you just need some time." that is ******** up. guy you have to be less kind. what about you?
the very best thing i saw was middle aged sikh daddy with his turban and gray beard, big belly climb to the top all 47 feet and then plummet down on the aqua racer. i hope he had a blast.
i am learning to look outward, which is where the good things are. or something. i have very many bad habits that i am not certain i actually enjoy anymore.
i don't even want to get into my parents stalking me to work and crying in front of my boss.
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